825. On Potential

I have a problem with the word potential. It feels like an empty promise. Everyone is born with potential, and as we age that potential ticks towards empty like the minutes of our lives. Just the other day I watched an excellent commercial by Nike that showed a very overweight boy running to the point where his body dripped with sweat. That is potential in its raw form. That is the realization that our bodies are molded by ourselves and we must put in the required effort in order to achieve the goals we wish for ourselves. This is where the general understanding of potential fails.

We, at least in this iteration of American society, place caps on potential. It is pervasive. We compare everyone to someone who came before. Usain Bolt is trying to be Carl Lewis, Lebron James is trying to be Jordan, every female astronaut is trying to be Sally Ride. This may be true, but it should not be. Potential, as a capping mechanism, weakens our individual ability to grow beyond the boundaries of someone else’s imagination. When I started writing I wanted to be the next Stephen King. I didn’t want to rule his genre, but I wanted to be that big. This was the cap of my imagination. Then, as I grew and saw the walls of opportunity closing in, I wanted to be the next Nigel Findley, the next Kenson, the list goes on.

What I didn’t want to be was the first me. I did not recognize what that could mean, because there was no roadmap to get there, which is what potential unfortunately creates. Potential allows one to craft a path by someone else’s history. It tells you how to get somewhere, which is in the vicinity of where you thought you wanted to go, but is unlikely to be anywhere near where you are meant or capable of going on your own. I am not saying in makes you wish for more than you can be or even less, but it makes you wish for someone else’s experience when all we should ever wish for is what we ourselves are capable of becoming.

I don’t talk about my kids in terms of potential. I talk about them in terms of ability and preparedness. I give them the skills and the tools to learn what they want to be. They need to build their own roads to get there.

Some Thoughts:

1. I know this is waiver wednesday, but I wanted to put it on hold for a very special wednesday next week once the pre-season is in full swing.

2. Writing. Yeah, I’m back at it. Nothing I can say right now other than there is some GREAT stuff in the pipe. Stay tuned.

824. Time

How many more posts can I make? Will we see 8465. Waiver Wednesday? Or will I have decided to move on by then? When is enough enough? I have been thinking about time a lot lately as the school year quickly approaches. I started the blog in a time of great need; when my writing no longer spoke to me and the rest of my life followed suit. I needed it then, like a lifeline to my own soul. Since that time the need waned and I struggled to find topics to converse about. Several times I talked, Seinfeld-like, about absolutely nothing. In recent months I have found patterns and conversations to follow, but they don’t strike me with the necessary regularity to make the columns valuable to potential readers. Of course, this didn’t start out about the readers, nor are there enough to significantly impact the direction. No, this all comes back to time.

When will it be time to break the rule?

The rule was about finding that time to write in spite of the world around me. That challenge still exists, perhaps to a greater extent than it previously did, because the writing demands are pacing the personal demands and there are still only 24hrs in a day. Two years ago I found myself trying to parcel out time according to a set schedule. This hour is four tv, is for gym, this for kids. That strategy is useless unless you control the elements demanding your time. So, now I go with it and squeeze in my writing time as I can, and that still is not enough.

I hope to write 4000 words tomorrow. It is the first day I have to write without any responsibility over a 7 hr block. Out of that time, I will likely write for 4 hours, with the rest going to the nubile up stage and other odds and ends. I wish I had that chunk every day, but normally I have a tenth of it. That tells me this: it is not time for the rule to be broken.

So long as I still struggle to write, I will have need of the ten minute rule. Besides, where else will I Talk about football on wednesdays?

823. Reflections on a Monday Morning

That tightness in my chest is probably driven by e over abundance of coffee in my system coupled with the crowds of people pressed into the narrow aisles of Gateway CC’s new enrollment services area. It is the first day of school for my youngest two, which means my wife, child #1, and I get to go to wifey’s school and help her register for her final semester of nursing. “Help” in this context means sitting around and waiting for her to do whatever drawn out process is required for her to be able to walk into class that first day.

Calling the process foolish would be like calling government cumbersome. Like government, the process is so entrenched that nobody is willing to make the sacrifices required in order to rebuild it from the ground up. Like government, the cost of doing such would be monumental. So, here I sit with my son trying to find a way to cut through the boredom of it all.

At least I have an iPad.

I also have a job starting soon. That means summer is nearly over and I am largely unfulfilled in my need for some rest and relaxation. Sure, I lounged around and played games, but I really wanted to hide away for a week and do nothing but write. In my perfect world, the kids wander off to the grandparents or something and I wander off for a week to do nothing but write. Dream on, eh?

822. Understanding the Apocalyptic

Been wanting to write about writing for a while now. I’m deep into the publishing schedule of a weekly fiction story and this experience is different from any other writing I have done in the past. I’ve published in books and online, but never in a serial fashion. The work is sci-fi but not apocalyptic. I watch a great deal of sci-fi and read even more. I recently finished Wool, an independently published sci-fi series. I am also watching Falling Skies, which brings me to today’s topic: The formula for apocalyptic writing.

The formula changes based on when in the apocalypse the story happens. During the initial stages of the uprising/invasion/rebellion/plague your story will likely swirl around three key groups. There are the invaders (Alien, Zombie, Machine, Vampire, etc.), the people (generally humans like us), and the changed. This third group is the most powerful and pivotal in the story. The changed have been altered by the invaders in some way. They may be immune, may have awakened new abilities, lost their ability to fear, joined with the invaders in some physical way (cybernetics, daywalking vamps, alien hybrids, etc). It is these changed people that walk the theme and tell the true story of this manner of writing. The idea behind this genre is change. It says that change is inevitable and nobody survives change intact. In fact, those who are most altered are those best equipped to deal  with the coming change.

When writing sci-fi stories in this mini-genre be sure to graft this basic formula to whatever story you are telling. Of course, this applies to fantasy as well. Though the two are far  apart in terms of tech level, they are closer in terms of story than you may think.

821. The Scapegoating of the Public Worker

I get it. The public school system is broken. Administration is bloated and likely overpaid. School teachers are not getting the job done. Worst still is the plight of the government grunt. Government workers are amongst the most hated groups in the world. They are generally rude (largely as a result of being overworked) and in situations where their roles are redundant they are fiercely protective of their unnecessary jobs. So, when the GOP launches into an attack about how government needs to be downsized, I understand. But here is what I don’t understand: How does firing people help the job market?

The fact is, it doesn’t. Yes, government needs reform. However, in order to do that level of reform will require firing more people in one day than the country hires in its best month. We could easily add a percent to the jobless rate and in the process destroy a number of lives. Of course, you never hear about what is going to happen to all the people put out of work. You won’t because it isn’t popular to talk about what happens to hard working Americans when they are stripped of the jobs they invested their lives in. No, instead we talk about firing the people it is easiest to hate.

Scapegoating is about hiding the truth and the root cause of the problem. We we let it happen we only make the problem worse.

 

Some Thoughts:

1. The difference between good cgi and bad cgi is no longer the processing power. Quite flawless CGI can and has been done by amateurs using readily available and affordable software. There is no better indication of this than in recent movies and fabricated paranormal footage. The stuff looks great. I think the real difference is the talent of the programmers involved–as it should be.

820. Fridaze

First, apologies on the rather intermittent service. On occasion this blog disappears. It always comes back, but it does lapse into these periodic silences as do I–at least in terms of physical improvement. The good news is I’ve come alive at last. I’m back in the gym and slowly working to put my body on the path to stay alive a lot longer. I am exceedingly sore. I did a short upper body workout preceded by a few minutes of light cardio. It wasn’t a super workout, but it was a breakthrough. Now I know I am back on track to be a healthy and it feels right.

What feels wrong is the incredible amount of money I spend on fast food for the family. Did You know that it cost $24 to feed a family of five at McDonalds, $24 at Sonic, nearly $30 at Chick-Fil-A, and only $20 at Panda Express. The fact is, fast food is quick and super costly.

This lesson was brought to my attention after realizing my kids spent the last few days living off that stuff. Call it the storm before the calm, or rage before the start of school. By whatever name it is a lot of bad eating. Well, it all stops now and the kids are going on the same diet we are on. Everyone should be healthy and fit.

Floop the pig: A meme in progress

Just found this sitting on my IPad. Apparently it never published. It should have been 820….

Sometimes memes are reflective of a feeling; a sense commonality and force of will. Today I was watching a recorded episode of Adventure Time and saw a meme born right before my eyes. Here is how it happened.

Adventure Time is a show about two individuals who live as brothers. Jake is a dog with the power to expand his body to enormous proportions. Finn is a human who happens to be one of a handful of humans in this magical world. He was adopted as a baby by Jake’s parents. Now the two are sorta grown up and living together in a treehouse as an adventuring duo. The floop episode, called Card Wars, is about downtime. Jake is a guru at the card wars game. He has developed a strategy based around corn and doesnt lose. Now nobody will play with him. So, he convinces Finn to play and Finn destroys Jakes well planned strategy by playing a random card, a pig. Finn doesn’t attack with the pig, as one apparently should. He floops it, setting it loose on the cornfield and eating all the corn.

Floop the Pig.

There is already a website and several mentions across the web about this young meme. So what does it mean? I say it means beat them when they underestimate you or even the weakest seeming person can be a beast. It means different things to different people. The fact that is became a meme shows that people can easily attach their emotions to the idea. I will watch this develop and report more as I know more.

In the meanwhile, I plan to help it spread.

819. Waiver Wednesday

It occurs to me that football begins on Sunday. The preseason begins in earnest on August 10th, and a few weeks later the games count. With that in mind I want to talk football.

The injury bug smacked up the Giants again. Nicks is out, leaving me to wonder who the #2 and #3 receivers will be. Hixon cannot be relied upon to stay healthy, Barden is rather untested, and the rest are question marks.

It doesn’t get any better on the D-side. Starting CB Terrell Thomas blew out his knee again.  Same knee, which means it never fully healed. Former 1st Rounder Prince Amukamara is going to have to step up now. No better time for it. The former Nebraska Blackshirt will be starting in a season that his former college team wears black shirt jerseys for a game for the first time.

The Jets are looking lovely this time of year. The marriage of Tebow and Sanchez appears to be working beneath harsh media scrutiny. NY media wants them to fail–needs them to fail or be on the verge of it to sell more papers and web time. Tebow is being his ever-gracious self, but you gotta know he’s looking for a shot at starting. It will happen again somewhere, and perhaps even in NYC.

Small post. Just a few thoughts on the coming season. I’m sure there will be more when I start considering the fantasy draft.

Some Thoughts:

1. I need febreeze for my car. The commercials sold that sucker. In fact, It has me thinking about using commercials in my classes. I am particularly fond of the Dos Equis commercials. Like most they seek to establish credibility of the spokesperson, but they do it in a very fun way. They’re also a logical fallacy for the most part.

2. 19 days till classes start. Not ready at all.

818. Reflections on a Tuesday Night

My novel is still growing. I found an angle that really makes it mine and more than a story everyone else tells. There are cycles in writing and now we are cycling through the apocalypse. My novel doesn’t quite go there, but I feel like there is space for what I am doing within that genre. At least I know the genre finally.

One revelation in a long line of necessary ones. Another would be a clear understanding of my role at work. I know what I am there for, at least for the next year. Afterwards someone will take the job and I will move on to another challenge. It isn’t what I want. I know that a year in the role is far too limited to make the best of it and truly establish a new position. On the other hand, I had a chance to make with a new position when I first joined the college and I didn’t execute the way I needed to. In fact I dropped the ball.

There are days when I want to wake up in 1991 and have a chance to do things with the effort and vigor I know I am capable of. You can’t go back. Perhaps the truth is that death is merely an cessation of new material and you live everything over and over again, but life is forward. It is the next moment and the moment after that. I didn’t feel that way earlier in my life, but as I age I recognize this fact and the fact that there isn’t really time to waste.

 

817. Politiblog

Mondays tend to be reserved for self-reflection as Wednesdays generally belong to football blather. Tonight is different. I watched Fox News channel’s Hannity show for a few minutes. In that short time I watched Hannity air an anti-Obama commercial in its entirety. Not as part of a commercial break, but as part of the actual show. He then went on to misrepresent the facts as part of a segment that defended the commercial and took the points made one step further. He called it analysis.

Just a week ago I was watching an episode of the Colbert Report online and watched Colbert do the same thing. I found it funny on Colbert, because it is a comedy show on comedy central. I found it disingenuous on Fox News, because they fallaciously claim to be both fair and balanced as a broadcaster. Neither is true, as evidenced by the above Obama bash.

Look, I get it. We have a quickly vanishing white class in America. The people being born today and over the last thirty years are largely separate from the old style white America. See, the new white America can be defined as a separate culture, while the old white America can only be defined as American. As strange as it sounds, that older breed is how the world saw us (and largely still sees us). That older breed is not who we are anymore. Like Britain before us, we are coming to be defined in a multi-cultural context and the picture of the American is no longer, well, Tim Pawlenty. We Americans are still us first materialists with a marginal grasp on world politics, religion, and economics, but we look different. This is what is so radical; so scary to that Good ‘Ol Party. They want things back the way they were at the very height of that image. They want the Reagan Years.

I’m not talking about Republicans as a whole. I think the elected Republicans are merely seeking strength in numbers in order to survive a world that has turned hostile to them. I don’t object to it. I think it eliminates individualism in the face of moving forward the most important issues, but there is nothing inherently evil about that. I get pissed about how they conduct their business.

Earlier this month I quoted Alfred from the new Batman trilogy when he said, “Some people want to see the world burn.” I believe the elected Republican leadership has become that beast. They are willing to sabotage any progress in order to create an opportunity to install their preferences. They are willing to lie on a galactic scale, and defend that lie as though it is truth. Worst still, they play the victim so easily should any of their tactics be turned back upon them.

Tim Pawlenty called the outrage towards Chick-fil-A’s anti-gay stance an attack on the first amendment. Now, it is both ironic and moronic for someone to call free speech (which is what the outrage is after all) an ATTACK on free speech. UNLESS you believe free speech should only exist where you agree with the speech being freely given. It is important to note here that Pawlenty was at the head of the pack of people attacking the people responsible for trying to open a Muslim community center near ground zero. He went on to dismiss the religion and the right of the religion to be practiced openly anywhere near that zone.

Of course, the right to practice religion where you want is a tenet of free speech–UNLESS you live in the world of the Republican leadership where “free” is subjective.