Day: December 18, 2021

The blogging continues to be tough. In the beauty of the holiday it is hard to find time to do what needs doing. By needs to be doing I am speaking of the words. I haven’t been diligent at all as a writer and this blog has suffered as much as the momentum for building the world. I need to get back into the flow, but I don’t know that it happens pre-xmas. In terms of the holiday itself I am doing well with getting gifts right and getting glee going but I am losing coherence in a sense. Everything is happening at once and that makes it hard to focus and hard to be successful at any one thing. Tomorrow ought to be better.

One thing at a time.

Actually, this one is about football, regardless of where it comes from. I’m in the playoffs now and the first game of the week treated me fairly badly. My qb was outscored by his reciever. His Wr was Tyreek. My QB is Mahomes. This is not a good start, Still, hope rings eternal. It was only a 3 point loss. I have many more players to play and the prediction still has me on top. Life is good this holiday and I am working towards developing a healthy amount of glee.

I also don’t have a great deal to say this fair evening. I suppose the problem is being drained to nothing late at night yet again.

Some Thoughts:

1. Seriously though, I gotta get better at blogging at a reasonable time. I’m bad at the game.

My partner reminded me recently that I spend a fair amount of time thinking and talking about death. This is not, of course, a good thing. I am working to rationalize the inevitable but I am also wasting the possible by rationalizing that which cannot be changed. How long one lives does not shift the fact of the end and acceptance of that fact is entirely irrelevant. Perhaps it is easier and more useful to continue to rage against the dying of the light. So, I will do that instead.

While I am still here I have a great many things I wish to accomplish and see accomplished. There is a chance my mid kid gets some D1 level offers this next sports year. He’s a brilliant mind and a solid athlete who is coming into his own physically. He’s ready to build and emerge into something greater athletically, but I really want to make sure he nurtures that beautiful mind as well. That has to be encouraged on my part. I’ve been told I’m not so good at that side of things, and I want to get much much better.

I have been thinking about this book a lot this vacation—the fantasy one I mean. I don’t know that it is just a book. It is a story world worth sharing, and a part of the conversation my partner and I have been having is about that sharing and how to do that. There are options. There is money to be made selling through Amazon and making the world a thing. I’ve also thought about the idea of a Kickstarter to build up the world, but in order for that to work right I have to build up the knowledge and appreciation of who I am as a writer. I haven’t done that much. I have a plan for that too.

I am going to Gencon. It is long past time, but this time is about both business and pleasure. The novel should be dropping at this Gencon, which is the perfect timing for selling my services to other gaming houses. I need to be out in the space meeting people and making the connections that could get me working more and pursuing this career. I also want to play some RPGs with great GMs. This is the venue for both things to happen.

I am anxious to expand more as a writer and share the ideas I have with the world and hopefully discover an interested audience. There are stories that need telling.