I Think…
Walking is a really good start. I’ve logged 18 miles over the past two days. I keep getting more and more constitution buffs from the action, and that is the entire point. Heart health is the key to me living long enough to be very old. I want that. I want to experience that great grandkid life. I want to be here for it all and I want to be here for my wife.
I Think…
My step kids show me more attention than my birth kids. The birth ones do not seem remotely aware that I have a life and that life is good. They show no interest in what is going on with me. Perhaps it is their age but more likely it is their upbringing. Some mistakes were made on my part. Some mistakes by their birth mom as well. Overall, I want to have adult relationships with these men. Only two of three seem remotely interested in maintaining contact.
I Think…
I lost the little one entirely. He’s fallen into a period of his life where I am a low priority on his list. He loves me, of that I am certain. Yet he doesn’t really care about me or what I think. It has to be hard for him, being the youngest and being the one his brith mom is closest to. He has to get a lot of negativity about me from that quarter. I don’t think I’m a real part of his decision making process in terms of college or anything anymore. He only hits me up when he needs cash.
I Think…
I’m tired of not sleeping well. I don’t know what it is that triggers nights like this, but it screws me up mentally the entire next day. I wasn’t able to accomplish any sort of solid writing today. I wasted a day and I am running out of days to waste. I have two stories due next week and 3 more pieces that are long overdue. Not sure how to get myself out of this hole. Once I do, I am slowing down for a while. Gotta rediscover that voice and that love.
I Think…
Knicks are making basketball fun to watch again.
Some Thoughts:
- Absolutely Bonkers Headline of the Day: “Wrestling matches provide an action-packed story time at US libraries, in photos” Lucha Libro? Well, if it works, it works.