My need for a chiropractor is starting to affect my behaviors. I worry about the growing neck pain more than I should, and it distracts me from nearly every activity. I should just go. I will just go, but I haven’t gone because of a long standing fear of doctors that dates back to the death of my stepfather. He went in for liver treatment and was given and later died of AIDS. The doctors apologized and claimed not to understand what kind of complications could of occurred. Later on they blamed bad blood. We were a young family and maybe more than a little naive. We didn’t take any sort of action. I don’t regret avoiding making money off of death. Money helps always, but you have to live with what you do.
Right now I’m living with this great sense of indecision and lack of intrinsic motivation. There are projects that make me really happy, but nothing that keeps that engine going. That leaves me in the constant start-stop leap from job to job, class to class, with no thread of purpose to hold it all together.
This could be an actual mid life crisis or merely the result of the 20 lbs of physical change negatively impacting my mental condition. Whatever the cause of this personal wasteland, I need to do something now. Starting with the physical condition seems to be the best course of action, but how do I get myself to start? Nike’s answer isn’t working.
Some Thoughts:
- Vince Young, drafted as the 3rd pick and hope of a professional franchise in 2006, has been cut yet again. This could mark the end of his very brief NFL career. This was a career marred by failures and poor attitude. It sends the message that the athletic QB is to be lauded and courted but thoroughly vetted. Cam Newton he was not. He remains a lone dissapointment in a top 6 that produced 5 pro bowlers (including Young!)
- Jets finally traded Wayne Hunter. He’ll do good in his new role, but the important part is they got a former #1 pick in return. Smith has a big price tag next year, so this is a one shot deal unless he renegotiates. That means they’ll be looking at Tackles in the next draft.