So, it’s 5:24 away from the last game of the regular season and it is clear that I am about to lose the championship game. There is almost no mathematical path to victory for me, and as dissatisfied as I am by this reality it is more troubling that I’m more focused on this than I am on the upcoming playoffs.
This is a large part of why I quit the game. I started focusing on the numbers and not the action—the joy of the sport. I’m first and foremost a football fan and fantasy, while introducing me to new players and teams I would otherwise ignore, it forces my attention to raw numbers.
so, such is the way this goes now. I’m not really going to stop playing, so I am going to try and make my watching more about the skills. There’s benefit in that, because it makes me a better student of the game.