Crunching through my evening salad I realized that my life has changed. I’m actively working towards becoming a healthier person. That is not to say I don’t need assistance. I have serious cardiovascular issues that I will be working to address with a specialist. I want to be alive. I want to love, to create, to enjoy the world. All of this I want to continue doing for as long as possible. I am happy, and happiness makes me want to keep going and get better and be better for everyone around me.
All that being said, I really wish I hadn’t allowed it to get this bad. Being a black man, I ought to know about the serious heart and blood pressure stuff that is common to those like me. I should’ve made better choices, as I am finally making better choices now. I need to continue making better choices and moving myself towards a place of continued joy. This is all.
Some Thoughts:
- I love being me. Sometimes being me annoys others I love to no end. This is a problem. Still, I gotta be me. If I were not I would not be the person that they and I love.