Day: August 17, 2016

A few weeks ago I fixed my shower.

In the greater scheme of things this is not a big deal; the expected chores of masculinity. However, in my life it represented a tectonic shift back towards an understanding that I can in fact handle my business. My pride took a hit a few years back at the hands of a rough divorce and resultant financial downfall. Several other social situations conspired to feed into my near depressive state and drive my self confidence to record lows. It was noticeable. The teaching suffered. The writing dried up. The home life went to crap. The love life wobbled on the brink of oblivion, curling back and forth over the edge like a drunk ballerina.

I didn’t have any real wins. Then I fixed the shower. Like I said, not momentous, but for me it was a moment of revelation. I realized that if I worked hard enough I could actually achieve all that stuff I spent time acting like I could easily accomplish. Turns out its real, mostly. I can achieve whatever I set my heart to (within reason) but it takes a lot of hard work that I don’t always want to do. It is also a lot more than the typical writerly Butt-in-Chair philosophy. It takes the mindset and mental peace to use that time effectively. I’m learning.

Some Thoughts:

1. Got the kids to school in time to play in the yard before class. Also not a big deal, but it means we are back on track here at the TalisHouse. Maybe that means these blogs start tipping back up towards 500 words?
2. And then I noticed it wasn’t Tuesday but Wednesday… so that happened.

 

The boys asked me for a theme night. They’ve fallen into such things lately. They’ve been exposed to Harry Potter night (complete with a homegrown tri-wizard tourney) and Dragon Ball Z night (with an outdoor movie-style projection and associated gameplay). Now they feel the Need for Speed.

Race car night is set to happen this Saturday, the day before the older two take the court in Suns Arena for their final basketball game of the season and one week before the AYF Tackle Football season gets underway. In sum, this is our last gasp of a summer vacation-esque weekend. The festivities will include a first look at the Rocket League racing/automobile-soccer game and an epic hot wheels racing extravaganza throughout the house.

Now all I gotta figure out is what to feed them. I mean, what do racers eat? They never actually make a big deal of such things on screen unless you’re counting Ricky Bobby…

Some Thoughts:

1. I have been in programming hell for a few days now. It started with the effort to get the blog back to posting to facebook (not easy) after a brief flirtation with cancelling facebook. Seriously, reactivating after deactivating facebook is harder and more cumbersome than getting a new credit card number after a hack. Of course, nobody knew I was gone, so there’s that.
2. Then I tried to update another site I run and that whole thing collapsed and shattered in dramatic fashion. 40 bucks later I’m still picking up the digital debris.
3. On a positive note, this one ought to publish to the book of many faces. Let me know if it did, okay?