Been feeling low today. Didn’t get more than 3 hours of sleep last night and that heaviness carried over into the day. I managed a rare nap, but it wasn’t enough to make me feel like I was really doing anything. The truth is, I carry a lot of weight on myself –both physically and mentally–and the stress of that adds up over time. It all hit yesterday and I found myself acting pretty self destructively. It isn’t healthy to be like that so it isn’t healthy to get to that point. I need to strike a balance where I can release some of the pressure and start to feel really good, without tipping headlong into negative behaviors that have diminishing returns. This blog serves as a good measure of such things. When it starts to suck–I mean really feel weak and forced–you know I’m tipping towards the bad. I hate feeling that way, and I live in an environment that does nothing but encourage feeling that way. I’ve yet to figure out what to do about it, but I can assure you I am too burned out to work it out on my own at this point.
Some Thoughts:
- Nah… I don’t actually have any more thoughts. I reflexively typed that because I still have a few minutes left to write and I was effectively done with my point. I remember when Some Thoughts used to be more than just the dredges of the blog.
- I will say this: I finished Monarch: Legacy of Monsters and I think they tried. They tried very hard and they had a few solid moments throughout. Overall, it is not a good show. It is a visually appealing show. Not a good show.
- Rewatching the Expanse in the obvious absence of good TV and realizing, I miss good sci fi. I miss good TV in general. I all but abandoned anime, because the kids are far too critical and far far too obsessive about the medium. Still, Solo Leveling looks like my kind of thing.