Day: March 27, 2026

What is Balance?

When you look at it from a ten thousand foot perspective, the vision changes. If you spend 12 hours in one day playing games and 12 hours the next day working hard on a project, is that balance? What role do the multiple facets of your life play in balance and how do the external pressures factor into this idea of balance? Is balance about how you feel or about how the people in your life feel about you and about what you are doing?

When I think about living a balanced life it is definitely a conversation rife with questions. I am not feeling like I live a life in balance. I feel like I have too much to do and all I want to do is take time off and play games. I feel like walls are closing in on me and I need to sacrifice things and the only thing I ever sacrifice is myself. I feel like nobody is less important in my life than myself, but that doesn’t jibe with the amount of time I spend playing games and calling it self-care. I feel like I am breaking the things that matter most in my life and carrying anger that should not rightfully exist.

I feel like shutting down. Constantly.

Nothing there feels like balance. It feels like me falling off a cliff.

Some Thoughts:

1. Absolutely Bonkers Headline of the Day: “Panicked travelers hear a new message from airports: Don’t get here so early” Cue spit take.

I’m wiped out.

I cannot say where it came from, though the Lady Talis has been also been under it for a few days. We are both struggling with low energy and I personally feel like this is the worst possible time. I have deadlines. I have to get back on track mentally and physically. I need to be in a space where I am focused on what needs to get done over the next two months and not wasting time and energy trying to get started over and over again. Story of my life right there. I tried to get going today, but slumped on the keyboard, eventually retiring to bed where I watched an episode of Invincible before passing out.

I will get there. Somehow.

I need to reframe this energy crisis into an opportunity. Everything is about putting time on task and allowing myself to focus and lock into one thing at a time, which I am not very good at as of late.

Some Thoughts:

1. Absolutely Bonkers Headline of the Day: “Iran has been blocking ships it sees as tied to the U.S. and Israel from the strait while allowing limited traffic, and Tehran appears to be charging fees for safe passage.” See, this is what happens when you let bros run the military. You wind up realizing that bros have no idea how to deal with real ones who’ve been doing this for a century. They’re being bombed daily and still managed to accrue zero fucks.
2. Earlier I said I had deadlines. It is worth knowing that a majority of these deadlines are coming from people who owe me money for work I did some time ago. So… pay this man.
3. What a difference a fan makes. I’ve learned this lesson in my 90 degree office with a faulty AC. Adding a Vornado changed the game for me.