I’m sitting here in a office clocking in at around 89 degrees and rising. I don’t have a reliable AC unit in the office, and probably need to replace the unit I have. Little things like this really are not so little. They feel like boulders on my psyche after a while, and my psyche feels overworked as of late. Yesterday my partner took a mental health day. I need one. I need to find a moment to get organized and then find a different moment to get reset mentally and then I will be ready to dive back into the day to day life I live and the all too busy next few months that are coming up. I am still excited about everything that is unfolding, but I do not feel like I have a grasp on any of it. In fact, I feel like I have no grasp on any part of my life. It all feels like a series of things I need to figure out while I sit back and don’t.
It is impacting me and I hardly realize it until I see it in my own actions. I am stressed and less than. I need to get right fast.
Some Thoughts:
- I want to watch the Colo game. Might not happen for more than say, a quarter. These are the choices relationships bring. That is not necessarily a bad thing.