8.29. Creative Fugue

I am writing this from my phone, which I rarely do nowadays. Something else I rarely do is use my voice to input the text. This is something I’m trying as well. I think that I’m getting better at this idea of writing as a lifestyle and constantly being connected to my thought process. One of the ways I can do that, short of being thoughtwired, is to use voice dictation.

So this post serves as an experiment of the mixture of voice and typing and an experiment of hearing the voice in my head as well as hearing my own voice out loud. I’ve been thinking about this concept for a little while now. I listen to audiobooks often and when the dialogue is spoken, it speaks to me directly. It makes me feel like I understand the characters of what they are saying better. This is, generally speaking, how you get to understand character. You hear them in their voice and you attach meaning to that. Introspection is a part of that process, but direct voice and often the way they use metaphor and simile provide a deeper look into who they are.

this process is helping me to provide a deeper look into who I am. I used to record messages to myself from the first time I had a phone. In fact, even before that I had a little recorder that I used. I don’t know where that is anymore nor do I know where the tapes are. I have lost all of that creativity that I gathered over the years. I still have the notebooks, but do I ever seek them out?

the truth is I’ve become somewhat complacent in my creativity. I rediscovered this when I was entering a username for an athletic program that I’m trying to use to help lower my weight. I try to come up with a series of names, none of which were accepted by the machine, so I defaulted back to what I know.

what I know is all I know. I have been using the same name and doing the same thing time in and time out for the last 40 years. How can I grow? How can I change? How can I evolve? Well, it all starts with trying something new. Plasticity is one of the most important concepts in creation and in creativity we must stretch to grow and it has been a long time since I stretched.

So, here I am stretching. I am trying something new. I am trying something wild and free. I’m trying to understand myself through new media, new styles, new opportunities, and above all our new creations. let’s see how this all works out.

8.28.

Tough day in the word mines. I made quota, but the real problem is how much more I am stuffing into this novel post edit. Imagine being an editor and editing an 80K manuscript and getting one back that is roughly twice that. I fear this may be the case. The first two chapters came in at 10k. They certainly were not that dense before. Yet there are things that need saying early, and that tonality has remained through chapter 4. I have a short chapter three, but I added that entire chapter, so it doesn’t actually count. This has gone really different from past work. I think I am in a different place with it and I think that I am creating a story that says a lot. Is it readable? Not sure. Honestly not sure.

Meanwhile life has continued to surprise.

We are struggling to figure out our summer and the pre-honeymoon phase to go with it. I feel like it is important to take the Lady Talis to Italy, because it is her happy place. However, the money is always a situation. When you want to travel globally, it is the most important thing to consider–well that and how Americans are seen right now… which is not very good.