“We are addicted to our thoughts. We cannot change anything if we cannot change our thinking.” – Santosh Kalwar
If anyone asked me how I feel today I would’ve responded, I feel the way a man is expected to feel when life shits in his mouth and calls it chocolate. That is to say everything in my life feels either false, fucked up, or increasingly temporary and unsustainable. Then I would ask how they expect me to feel or even if they do. I think the question itself is meant to be little more than a gratuity that puts people at ease and perhaps opens the larger conversation.
Here is the thing though: We are programmed to fall into these patterns of thought and operation, which move us towards simplistic lives where we serve some larger false ideal be it religious, political, or both. We are, in the end, trained corporate sheep who live lives based on the idea of what we are supposed to think and feel and do in order to power the machine and keep the lights on.