I tried to mow the lawn a few minutes ago. The grass is super high, and I used this weed whacker spinny tool to knock it down to size. Afterwards I ran the electric lawn mower over it a few times. Let me set the stage properly. My lawn is really a patch of grass about 5 feet wide by ten to twelve feet long. The fact that I call it a lawn ought to warn you that I am deeply uneducated about such things. Yet I try. I try and I make it extra hard on myself by doing things clearly wrong and not coming up with a finished product that looks good. I’m trying to reinvent a process that exists and is relatively easy to learn, but I refuse to be educated on.
Sounds a bit like creative writing to me.
I am rarely in the camp of: Don’t learn how to write. I also recognize I’m creating a bit of a false equivalence here. However, there are thousands if not hundreds of thousands or even more books in circulation about the art of writing. I’ve read close to three hundred myself and I learn more each time I read a different book. Yet I started without study and , to be honest, my writing felt less scripted when I did. But is scripted really that bad?
We are writing to an audience that has expectations. We are writing in a form practiced over a thousand years and honed to become what it is today. Sure, there are different forms, but the basics of story have not changed very much. Writing without understanding the form is possible for sure, but you end up like me in the yard–especially if you want to get published. What you wind up with is raw and possibly amazing, but likely needs some shaping to get it ready to sell.
Read a book about writing. Better even Go to school. You go there and you might stumble into a community of writers that want to get better just like you.