Been thinking about death a lot lately. Maybe it is because I’m recognizing that I’m getting old and this journey will eventually end. It scares me still. Some days I think about rushing towards it. Others I am fighting to stay away from it as long as possible. It changes a lot and that has everything to do with the people I am around and the mental condition I am in. Honestly, I don’t think I am my best self mentally. I hope I can recover to some version of that self I am comfortable with. This version simply isn’t it, and I am deteriorating in multiple ways.
So, I need to get right. I need to do It sooner than later. I don’t have forever… that much I’ve figured out.
Some Thoughts:
- Just saw an incredible Toyota commercial. It really moved me. The beauty of it was they didn’t even feature a new truck. It was about a very old hand me down, and a voice mail from the driver’s father.
- Sis in law just left. It was good to see her. She’s a lot, I love her, and… she’s a lot. I’ve had two versions of her in my life for a long time, and one has disappeared from my life. This one hangs around and pops in from time to time kind of like a hurricane.