This has been a rough start to the week. I’ve felt quite overwhelmed and unable to perform the basic day to day stuff I’m meant to, and I’m hiding into day where I start teaching at 7AM. I don’t feel ready for any of it. Most of that feeling/pressure comes from the new move. This pressure has me messed up again, forgetting to publish posts, and all of the general white noise that drowns out any real thinking and understanding. I just need to get away, get a reset–a HARD reset–and start to think about the things that matter again.
My brother and I talked today about lists. He doesn’t list like I do in terms of oh, this needs to happen today, lists. He writes down everything and then he organizes it in a mental process that is reflective of his brilliance. That way he can sort through the stuff he needs to sort through. I’ve gone listless and it shows.