6.752. A Couple of Things

First, I butchered the spelling of the great Thich Nhat Hanh a few days ago when lamenting his death. If that wasn’t bad enough I should have been celebrating his life. I got that one wrong. I get a lot of them wrong. It is a fundamental part of my unwokeness. Ordinarily I would be lamenting my unwokeness but I’m not prepared to have that conversation. I think that the idea of being ‘woke’ is difficult to navigate, primarily because it is about being accepting and accommodating of people who are different, but only if that different is a like-minded sense of acceptance. We don’t ever firmly choose to accept the non-accepting, because that would be enabling hate.

I am rambling. I do that more and more lately. I think it is a gut reaction to not creating narratives and the characters that populate my imagination are bleeding into my reality, but the negative ones are the strongest, because negativity apparently has more upfront and in your face noticability than happiness. Oh also, the happy characters always seem to be less interesting.

Some Thoughts:

  1. I miss Razzi-ann. She was the only cat who really wanted to snuggle up with me all the time. It sounds strange but she even groomed my hair and that was perhaps the most loving thing an animal has done for me. All other cats are <
  2. I have to get out of my own head in terms of negativity. It doesn’t help that I am surrounded by it on a daily basis. Negativity, laziness, and lack of personal motivation to do more than sit on your ass and watch shows and play video games. Talislegger, This is your Universe!
  3. Gotta go to work now.

6.751.

I think every dad goes through a period of being frustrated with his kids. I’m firmly in that period. They’ve been hard to be around for a little while now and that is largely about negative attitudes, unwillingness to lift a finger to help around the house, me-first attitude, and general disrespect when it comes to what other people have going on. The latest disrespect is one that I don’t even understand. One of them deleted my copy of Madden from the ps5. It wasn’t for storage space or anything I can really figure out. I get that you found a game you want to play, but there is really no purpose in deleting my game. None whatsoever. Yet it happened.

Other things happen too. For example, I really like this desert called brookies. Today as I was putting away the groceries a couple of the boys got up and, instead of helping me put away groceries like they saw I was doing, first went through the bag specifically looking for what they wanted and grabbed that. Then they grabbed the brookies the moment I pulled them out of the bag and ate 3 of the 4 brookies. For Breakfast. Sure, call me a fat ass for wanting my desert treat. I can deal with that. I immediately stashed the second box, knowing that if I hadn’t those would be quickly devoured as well. That is the attitude I’m faced with. Take what you want do nothing to help. I hate boys.