6.879. Reflections on a Wednesday

The irony of watching Prime’s Upload in VR is not lost on me. It is in fact intentional. I wanted to reflect on the massive improvements in technology over the past 40 years while simultaneously enjoying that tech and a dissection of that tech being streamed right to my seat as I stationary bike my way to a semblance of better health. Lately it feels like science fiction is a reflection of ‘just around the corner’ though the distance between here and there is categorized by invasive surgeries that, up till this point, have not been formally legalized. Well, some have. Implanted credit chips have been a reality for years. All this is to say that I, as a science fiction writer, have serious thinking to do.

I’ve been asking myself what story I am trying to tell. Generally speaking it has been the story of a young kid bristling with raw talent who is thrust into a leadership position that ultimately defines him as someone he’d rather not be. As such he is left to figure out who he wants to be while toting around that responsibility of leadership and trying to merge those two lives. In other words, I write about me. A lot. It is long past time to move beyond that story–especially considering that I don’t tell it very well. Instead I’ve started to take on other ‘responsibility’ tales, most of which seem to be born from that core of my youth experience.

Tech factors into what I do, because I grew up at the intersection of technology and society. I grew up alongside the internet. I created multi-user dungeons when they were still in their infancy. I still have notebooks full of handwritten code and dot-matrix printouts of even more code properly stored in three ring binders. My past was science fiction. So what is my future? What is the future I am predicting or even warning about through my writing? I’m not quite sure. More thinking is required.

6.878.

I am having the kind of day where I want to blog quickly and be done with computers for the rest of the day. I’m not even finding a ton of joy in playing video games right now. These days happen and they are hard. If you get knocked off balance as a writer, then everything that follows reminds you of what you are not doing and why you are not doing it. This is how it is for me now.

How I got here is a complicated story. It involves an argument, but prior to that there were a number of small shoves that had me heading in one direction or the other. I am back at the gym, which is good but I am still not in a place where the gym is getting me to where I need to be at the speed I want to get there, and that is frustrating. I have classes to rebuild and no organizational setup to get that worked into a normal day and that is frustrating. Back to the gym–I tried to use the sauna and largely failed and that is frustrating. That brings us to the argument where all of the frustrations of my life tend to manifest. The argument itself was as mediocre as they come. Questions were asked. I didn’t have good answers. Frustrations rose on both sides. So here we are.

Now what? Well, I am going to do as many mundane tasks as I can as I usually do when the brain shuts off. Then, I’ll come back to it tomorrow.