Day: June 24, 2025

Well, I finally made that weight I was expecting to hit in January of 2024. According to that Fail Blog, I was scheduled for 232 with a steady decline to follow. I’ve not seen anything resembling steady or decline. In truth I’ve fluctuated like an EKG. Today it’s 232, but next week it could be 238 again. I don’t know how to lose weight–not consistently. I am on the hard walking trail now, logging 15 miles over the last two days. I close my apple rings as many days as I can. The days I don’t generally reflects being in the 100+ degree heat of the valley, which reflects a condition where I would rather not be outside.

I am not moving towards healthy with any real speed. I can say that I am moving towards healthy. My stamina is greater than it was at the time of that Fail Blog. I can and I want to walk further each day. I try to get in the daily walk even with the weather suggests it won’t be pleasant. Once, I even walked the dog and jogged with him for a bit. All of these changes show that there is a want involved here. I want to live. I want to be able to do things physically. I want to look better for the Lady Talis and for myself. Where I fall short is properly distinguishing between wants and needs.

I’m quite terrible at organizing needs properly or realistically… or even ahead of wants. For example, I need to get back to writing, classwork, and grading (in some version of that order), but I want to step back for 30 minutes to an hour and play a game. I know that once I do this, I’m down to, say 45 minutes of remaining work time for my day. So I need to convince myself to stay on the keyboard and not wander off into a Minecraft realm to play. This is far more difficult than it ought to be, especially because I feel burned out on the writing for today and don’t want to do the other two things that need doing.

Working towards being healthy is a lot like the above. I don’t want to put the work in. I qualify it as a need, but I don’t address the need properly. It is a change I am going to have to make sooner, because it won’t be an option later.

Still trying to make sense of the world and having a very tough time doing so. We’re bombing Iran and talking about regime change. We are in fact talking about pushing a proxy war between them and Israel without giving much credence to anyone catching Iran’s back. So far nobody has in a way that is noticeable. I hope this remains the case, because I do not want to be living in the age of WWIII. That isn’t a great look for us. It won’t just be waged overseas. We don’t get that luxury anymore. I don’t know that the people here are fully aware of that. I don’t know that they want to be.

Not forming a lot of coherent streams, so I will move on to…

Some Thoughts:

1. Just Chilly’s Flight Club is the premiere High School 7s tourney in the valley. My boy’s team wasn’t invited as a lock-in but they were invited to the play in. They went 7-0 and earned their ticket… with the backup QB. In Defense we Trust
2. Saw a bit of the Firestarter remake. Terrible. A poor attempt at a shot for shot kind of thing that went awry when the gravitas could not be pulled off. It moved too fast and was not good. Eventually, I fell asleep.
3. Excellent Sunday-Monday. Felt like a roadmap of how I want to live life. The only flaw was that I didn’t write either day. I need to figure out how to incorporate this very important aspect of my life into the daily routine in a way that works. This time the writing time was absorbed by either driving or football. I gotta fix it. I need to get the novel turned over the the editor… again.