Day: May 25, 2026

I Think…

I like this format. It is like Some Thoughts but in a slightly more formalized way that makes it feel different enough that I don’t feel lazy. I am lazy, which is a longstanding thing. Lately social media has been pushing this narrative that high intelligence men are not actually lazy but are instead in need of this one wierd trick. Which is to say, money grab. I’m not buying it. I am buying the fact that I am a systems guy. I was planning to be an engineer throughout my early life (as a fall back in case pro athlete fell through). Now I am all about systems that make me feel like I can operate within the structure, and occasionally break said rules. This is what drew me to RPG writing. I’ve continued to refine my systems. I’ve even added a ten minute timer to my watch face to make sure I am operating within the parameters of this particular system of expectation.

I Think…

I am more creative than I think, but I am trapped at the bottom of an ecosystem that only develops creativity higher in the system. I recognize this contrast each time I consider the work I do at the grad level vs. the work at the RPG level. I am beginning to feel confined by the systems therein. I don’t know that I can grow there.

I Think…

I am looking forward to the fall as the final HS football season (for a long long time). It will be great to see my kid close it out and for this to be the last HS graduation for some time. What does life look like without the responsibility of having non-adult kids at home?

I think…

I had another major thought I wanted to push out in this space before the clock got low. I totally forgot what it was as I was writing–wait! It was about using a ten minute timer as a break during writing sessions. More on that after I try it.

Some Thoughts:

1. Absolutely Bonkers Headline of the Day: “Holy deception: Rome’s ‘sexy priest’ calendar star never set foot in a seminary” So much came out in this article. First of all, the Lady Talis and I bought this calendar a few years back. I believe we gave it to her mom as a gag gift of sorts. Moreover, the fact that this is not actually affiliated with the Vatican should be obvious but it was not. It was being sold outside of the Vatican and near many many churches, so I kinda just thought it was good.

Somewhere, basketball is being played. I am supposed to care, but I don’t. So long as the Knicks win (tomorrow?) all is right in the sprawl. This post isn’t about that. It is about the shift I am undergoing and how it is impacting my body, mind, and spirit. While it has yet to be a full week, I truly believe in the power of Sunday. I’m calling it the start of the second week. Each week I expect to return to this space and blog about growth and change and how to become the person you want to be in 90 days.

I have not touched a scale since I started this journey. I know I was 238 when my feet left the ground. I am going to work hard towards change without specifically monitoring weight, because the key to a lot of what I am trying to do is about being active and being able to feel good about movement. On the mental side it is about being able to feel like I can do the things I need to do without feeling like an imposter. That has plagued me a bit recently, and there were setbacks as a result. Now I see the projects of the summer directly in front of me and, as previously noted, I know the hours.

I also know what kind of time I am devoting to moving around. I’ve gone from maybe 2 miles of total movement in an average day to 6 minimum. It is hard to flip that switch, but the Lady Talis has me moving and the rust is starting to flake away. It is going to take more time, but I am working hard at finding a new baseline for activity. From there I will start to grow into more active days. The same holds true with the writing. I am working back towards a baseline. from there I will work towards more productive days. All of this is much like the early days of the Ten Minute Rule where I set a baseline and made sure I did this blog–I did at least this much each and every day. When I can get there mentally and physically, I can start to heal my spirit and push towards who I want to be for every tomorrow.

The best is yet to come.

Some Thoughts:

1. Absolutely Bonkers Headline of the Day: “Young men storm a Congo hospital treating Ebola patients to demand bodies of their kin” There is more to this headline. Some clinics are being burned to the ground. The fear and confusion being sown throughout the Congo is maddening. We are too far advanced as a species for this nonsense to be tolerated. Yet, we treat Africa as beneath our human regard and respect, so it does happen and we are never going to grow as a species until it stops happening.