Another blown writing day.
I’ve reached the point where I am having serious doubt about my ability to put together a story. Everyone goes through slumps. Trying to write in three different genres and do three different types of writing at once is probably a huge part of it. I cannot find the voice for these characters and I’m losing touch with what my own writing voice is in the process. Today I was trying to write a 3k word story for an upcoming book, but the story is not making sense. I cannot find a way in. I cannot figure out how to make it make sense, where to start, what the individual character motivations are, what I am trying to say, or anything. I used to really enjoy diving into these aspects, but now it feels impossible. I spent the last hour trying to figure out how these three characters got into a building where the story takes place, and never got a answer that made sense.
I’m at zero with this story again, and it is due in 6 days. I have a different story due on Saturday, which is nothing like the sci-fi one I was attempting to write today. I am doing way too much right now and none of it is remotely coming together. I want it all to be over. I am not one to quit projects, and I will somehow make it through all of this in time, but right now the entire process is looking like a big fail. None of this work will be peak level.
The worst part is: I don’t know how to break out of it. I don’t have a clue how to adjust to get these things done. I’m drowning in a sense of hopelessness so closely aligned with what writers call ‘writers block’ that my failure feels inevitable. All of it is making me angry and hyper and unable to clear my head. I’m desperate for a way forward right now and all I have is this blog to vent through.
Some Thoughts:
- Absolutely Bonkers Headline of the Day: “Rob Reiner’s son Nick seeks money from trust parents left him for his defense in their killings” This is not okay. I don’t fully understand how a lawyer gets up in the morning and decides to represent this level of madness. This, to me, is what is wrong with humanity. My guy, you killed them. You don’t get to have the money too… Or, since the law can be manipulated, you probably will. That’s worse.
- This feeling I have right now is why writers do drugs. Probably how they get clear headed and focused. Unfortunately for me, I’m not about that life. I’ll just suffer through…