At least the Giants won.
The game turned into a real nail-biter in the final minutes with the Giants finally pressing and scoring to take the lead. I think like is a lot like that for me. Things get really bleak and dark before anything wonderful can happen. That being said, I must be in line for a great deal of wonderful. As far as the Giants are concerned I am watching Odell Beckham Jr. in tears after a tough win. Things matter more when you work for them; when you earn them you respect what you’ve earned.
So, what have I earned? It is a question I ask myself each day. It is followed by, what am I working towards? Professionally, I am working towards being a respected novelist. I expect that respect to come from those in the community–those who understand what we go through in order to put writing together.
In my personal life I think I have earned at least a peek at happiness. I recognize that true happiness and through and through good partnerships are rare beasts. Mostly we hold on to something that is decent and safe. We huddle together in the darkness of life and try to make the best of each day. Or maybe we don’t. Maybe we linger in the darkness, breathing it in and exhaling spite and disappointment.
We all deal in different ways.