859. Down cycle

The key to being a successful person might just start with what you put into your body. For starters, the amount that you eat is a crucial part of how and why some people are mentally productive and others fall apart by 2. I fall apart by 2. In fact, I only lasted that long today because a good friend slipped me a bag of mixed nuts in the morning. Those nuts, a banana, and two cups of coffee (cut with milk) were the fuel expected to power me through a day full of classes, tutoring, and intense conversation. That paltry meal was not enough.

Years of reading medical journals and seeing that information dumbed down and regurgitated through Men’s Health have taught me that breakfast is extremely important after the down cycle of a good night’s sleep. Follow that with up to five additional small meals throughout the day in order to keep your body at peak level. Wash all of this down with 8-10 glasses of water minimum. Avoid soda and other sugary drinks, and engage in physical activity in order to keep the body active and alert. The mind will respond well to this. It may need some glucose and caffeine for the prefrontal cortex to be in top form, but if you’re doing everything else above, this may not be as necessary.

Everything above is exactly what I ain’t doing.

I may or may not have breakfast. Instead I settle for 2 cups of coffee diluted in creamer. The coffee is an appetite suppressant, so I can ignore the morning hunger. My work schedule generally means that I don’t see a break until 11:05 and that is usually swallowed by students who stay late or me just running over. 11:15 hits and I am at it again till 12:30. There is a brief walk to the writing center and another hour of work. Then it is off to get the kids from school. I stop at Wendy’s for a small value meal and let the calories carry me until the 5:30 (or sometimes as late as 7:30) dinner. The day is done and I have eaten 1 meal. At that point the body’s metabolism is on strike, recognizing my failure to consume nutrients. Instead of losing weight, it stores the fat I consume and allows me to have something to work with for the next time I act a fool and don’t eat. That next time is the next day, and the day after, etc.

I close the day with three more cups of java and enter the down cycle sometime after midnight. Morning comes too soon and my body never gets to recharge. This is how young people become old fast, and this is how I am going to die before 40.

Unless, of course, I do more than realize how sick this is and actually change it.

858. Reflections on a Monday Night

My wife asked me if I was happy with my things. Following the purchase of a new TV at a nutso low price, I can say I am happy. My house is moving towards the ready state, and with it being clearance time for yard things, I may be able to make all the progress I need to make with the yard and even put together a brief bbq if the weather turns nice.

The office is slowly coming together in a way that allows for space to develop story outlines. I have a chunk of wall space picked out to host my outlines, which will help me clear out some of the clutter in my mind and allow it to live on the wall, where it can challenge me daily and demand to be finished.

Home life, work life, writing life, physical life. That last one is where the turmoil is most evident. I weigh 217.4 lbs, which is on the borderline of obesity, and far fatter than a 6’3″ man should safely weigh. I am working on the problem but without the speed and motivation that I should be. In fact, I am more worried about the pained condition of my knees than the extra weight causing said condition. Getting started is extremely hard for me right now. I feel like there are too many other priorities taking precedence over this. The month of september is  a tough one indeed.

857. New Week Means…

Another post about me.

Been trying to get on track and in rhythm. The problem of it all is a startling inability to focus  anywhere near my children. I do better when I am at work, thus I am unable to work in any competent fashion when I am outside of the office. Solution: Stay at the office. Which brings me to next week.

The schedule is light (Talislegger light, not actually light), including 6 class preps, 2 – 4 chapters, 1 meeting, 2 practices, one presentation, paperwork to turn in, and more grading than one should imagine and hope to remain sane. Prioritizing tells me that there are spots in the schedule that, if used properly, will allow me to complete everything without having to worry about working when I get home. Now I can think about coaching when I get home.

 

So this week means meaningful accomplishments during work hours and it also mans a chance to develop my coaching ideas for youth. I have been trying to find ways to teach fundamentals while also teaching players how to respond to pressure. I want to push those fundamentals down the chute. I want to move the actions from the prefrontal cortex to the basal ganglia, building response to pressure as an automatic routine.

High hopes, I know.

856. What the Natives Knew

You cannot talk about Talismans without addressing the North American Tribes. They were fresh in my mind while I was listening to a book on brain research and workplace performance. Here is what science says: The brain can only function at a high level for a limited time, because the prefrontal cortex requires large amounts of energy (glucose) to function effectively. Here is what Shamans do: Allow moments to pass without focus and then harness focus to create microbursts of brilliance. So, can you see how we can learn from shamans; how they learned through practice and meditation what it took us centuries of science to unravel?

I’m thinking a lot about how the brain works in order to force myself to exert greater controls over the brain and thus get to where I want to be as an individual. I’ll speak on that more this monday. However, I do want to mention that there are profound connections between what ‘magic’ teaches and what science discovers. Perhaps the old-world scientists were seen as magicians. It is true that any superior technology, sufficiently advanced enough, is indistinguishable from magic. The understanding of said tech and science may be seen as magical too.

 

Some Thoughts:

  1. 218.4 lbs. At least 15 lbs to go in order to make it to the crucial threshold by October 4th. It isn’t a lot of time, and shaking off the rust has been difficult–especially on the knees. I managed to find some screws to put the treadmill back together. That doesn’t detract from the fact that I need to take of nearly 5 lbs a week to make weight. Not sure it is healthy to do so.
  2. Coincidentally, if I want a BMI of 24, I need to get down to 197. A BMI of 22 means 180. I won’t go below that.

855. The Beyblade Obsession

It started out as something for the kids. They watched a show called Beyblade and became obsessed with the idea of buying the little metal tops and battling each other. I bought some for the boys and a couple just so I could play with them. Over time this small purchase grew larger and blossomed into an obsession. I went from playing for the boys to playing against the boys to now, playing to understand how to construct the perfect Bey.

This evolution has not come cheap. My wife recognized my obsession early on and saw where it would lead. She knew before I did that I would try to work out the physics of the thing. I bought a box of twelve Beys from China only to discover that the Chinese Beys are formed from some kind of aluminum based composite, creating a lighter Bey, and one that cannot compete with the American-bought Beyblades. So now there are 8 Beys (left 4 in the boxes) that have no chance to make the rankings–like a bunch of filler fighters on the bottom of the fight card.

I went online and watched videos, read chat boards, listened deeply to the thoughts of many about the perfect Bey. My idea of perfect is not shared by many, although in this house my Perfect Prototype Virgo (Earth Virgo with a metal core) wins 85% of its matches. According to the web, Twisted Tempo should hold that mark. It is by far the heaviest Bey core and tears through the lighter Beys and attack types.

So, here is the thing: I want to get more Beys. I want to experiment and learn what is best. I want to trade and develop a potent roster. I want to raise the number of Beys to 50 and watch the battles go all day long. Most of all, I want to see the kids do this and become champs. Of course, they gotta get past me first.

854. Reflections on a Season’s Start

Usually I devote waiver wednesday to my picks for the week’s games, but in a haze of Giant disappointment, I neglected to do so. I am not angry at the Giants persay, but at the injuries and thinness of the CB position. That’s neither here nor there. This post is about picks for the weeks games.

 

Patriots over Titans
Patriots cannot stop the run, so fantasy fans should be starting CJ2K. On the other hand, Titans cannot stop the pass, especially when that pass is aimed at a Tight End. It is going to be a very long day for the Tennessee linebackers.

Colts over Bears
No, I am not on drugs. I realize that I said many terrible things about Andrew Luck leading up to the draft. I know I thought he’d be a bust and that the talent drought in Indy would expose him. However, the Bears are going to come out slightly flat footed and be taken by surprise by a team that has been losing for way too long to get caught out there on day 1.

Eagles over Browns
I don’t even think I need to make a commentary here.

Lions over Rams
Listen, the Rams stink. They have a great new coach who will need time. They have a very weak division that will float them a few wins, but in the end Megatron is going to do his thing.

Texans over Dolphins
By the time playoffs rolled around last year, the Texans were starting a ball boy at quarterback. They still were favored to win. They didn’t, of course, but with their QB healthy and all the other parts in place, this is going to be a nasty blowout. The only thing that could make it better is if the Texans go out and sign Ocho, just so he can score a TD, pull off his helmet and reveal the shape of a battered dolphin carved into his hair.

Falcons over Chiefs
Tough pick here in what looks to be a very close competition. The Chiefs have all of their weapons back, but with the limited amount of time they all worked together in the preseason, I think the seasoned Falcons pull this one out by a TD.

Jaguars over Vikings
Mark this down for the NOT Game of the Week. AP is making his return and will likely be limited. ‘Pocket Hercules’ will also see limited action. So we’re down to backup RB’s carrying the load for teams whose QB’s aren’t exactly NFL elites.

Jets over Bills
But I thought the Giants would win too. Seriously, the wildcat could be that running game spark the team needs in order to be successful. On the other hand, that will limit the amount of touches Sanchize gets, which means eventual drama. These guys need to get some offensive talent quick.

Saints over Redskins
Not even close. RG III will play some decent ball, but the talent around him is negligible. He is quickly going to be seen as the next Chris Carr unless they give him some help. Cutting your best TE is not the kind of help I’m talking about either.

Bucs over Panthers
Everyone is talking about ‘Superman’ Newton and forgetting that when he and Tebow were at Florida, the S was on Tebow’s chest. Yes, Newton is more accurate. Yes, Newton has the indelible Steve Smith. No, that is not going to matter one bit to a Florida team with a hard nosed college coach that sees him coming. Panthers, meet the running game. Oh, and Talib is pretty good too.

Broncos over Steelers
Peyton just has too much going for him here. It is a home game, he is a year removed from the sport and hungry as hell. Did I mention that he’s been known to carve up the Steeler secondary like xmas turkey? Expect 1-2 picks to serve as an appetizer for a 4 TD main course.

Ravens over Bengals
People continue to sleep on the Ravens. Meanwhile they’re talking hype about Lewis’ Bengals. Nope, nope, nope. Baby Ray don’t play.

Chargers over Raiders
The Chargers long history of slow starts hiccuped last year. Instead they had a slow finish. I think that trend continues as the receivers (and the hype) die down. The Raiders are going to threaten in this game and perhaps throughout the first half of the season.

853. Waiver Wednesday

Giants lost. It doesn’t matter as much as one might think. An early loss does much to put the ballclub in an ‘us against the world’ position. The team responds well to that. They don’t respond as well to major injury problems. The real loss tonight was not to the Cowboys but to the secondary. Another Giant went down, reducing an already hurting secondary to shambles. There is nobody left.

My fantasy season started out with as many gaffes as the Cowboy’s O-line. I false-started two times, assuming I had started the Giants D vs. DAL as well as Martellus Bennett. No such luck. I started the 49r’s D vs. Pass-happy Green Bay and a very angry Cedric Benson. Instead of Bennett who caught for 40 yds and a TD, I started Jets TE Dustin Keller who may or may not play.

There is no fantasy pre-season, so I get to make my mistakes when they count. Unfortunately, Giants RB David Wilson and the rest of the ‘hands’ team did the same. The result doesn’t look too good.

852. Why America as we know it cannot survive the digital world

If you ever questioned American superiority, just look at the olympics. We have the best talent in the world in a lot of the ways that talent is measured. We win all the time, because we are built to win. How so? We have a built in cheat code. You see, America, by virtue of the power of immigration, can import the world’s best talent and make it our own. Unfortunately, this design we have created has an expiration date. That date has already passed.

Here is the problem as I see it: American society is predicated on the idea that we, and only we, can be the best. We don’t need help from anybody and we take charge of everything. This worked well for two world wars and something slightly resembling a third brewing in the middle east. Only now, this American exceptionalism is in the crosshairs of an enemy it cannot defeat: The Internet.

The web is a large, multi-user idea and information aggregator that refuses to be controlled by a single national entity. Through the web you can seek out the greatest collection of talent the world has to offer and bring them together under the banner of purpose, not nationality. With such a model in place, the need for nationality can crumble in the face of a global village. National pride can be superseded by idea mobs and flash projects, thought driven financial enterprises that pick and choose physical territory in order to avoid  laws they choose to ignore. We are consumers so, yes, we will still buy the products created by these non-national entities. In doing so we weaken the strength of the American brand and slowly count down the demise of a nation that refuses to evolve with the time.

The U.S. as a melting pot provided the framework and inspiration for the creation of the modern internet. However, as a nation predicated on the idea exceptionalism, we cannot survive this new digital era.

851. Reflections on a Monday Morning

When I first started the 10 minute rule I thought it would offer me some insight into how I operate as a person and as a writer. It did the job, uncovering patterns and methods like tarp being slowly pulled back from a pool. Hundreds of days slipped by and I waded at the surface of that pool. Then, every so often, I would slip a little deeper. The proper connection of motivation and inspiration would ignite my fires and a hidden truths would slip out across the pages. I think I learned another last night.

Writing is immersion. As a child I could fall into a story, releasing my natural breath and sucking in the oxygen of whatever realms a writer created. When I became a writer the process of creation was equal to the process of writing. I would slip down deep into a world and move around inside of it, scribing the words as I saw them, as they happened. Little by little I learned about the craft of writing. Little by little I was tugged up and out of my myriad of worlds into a place where I was less observer than analyst, where I puzzled over every twist of phrase and every form of page. I learned my way out of writing.

I believe this is the natural progression of a writer. First we write, then we learn, then we must discover how to exist in both spaces–how to descend into the depths of a story completely, forgetting the knowledge of craft that rests heavily on our psyche. We must tell the truth of the story and then, having experienced it all, we must apply that analysts eye to shape the telling into something more.

Some Thoughts:

 

  1. As a kid I had the most vivid memories of times and places and incidents that, at the time, made no sense. I remember, for example, having epileptic seizures that would begin as a slight shivering in my ear and blossom into a grand mal attack. This did not happen in my life. I remember tearing off my kneecap, the gelatinous innards hanging there on a fence while I writhed in pain, a child knowing his childhood would never be the same. I remember a farmhouse out on the edge of nowhere, meekly furnished saved for an ultra-realistic sculpture of Jesus Christ hanging on the cross. I remember these things as naturally and completely as I remember the biggest moments in my life. In many ways these memories are more real and more powerful than things I know I experienced. Yet, these are incidents I know I did not experience and I cannot understand why or how I should remember them so fully.
  2. Started the workouts at 218.8 lbs with a 30 day goal of getting to 205 lbs. Started with 4 minute tabata from boyrock.tv. In a perfect world I will begin a routine with a slow jog for 5 minutes, slip into a tabata, move to weights, back to a tabata and a jog of 5 minutes to close.

850. 30 Days

It is now obvious that my ever-expanding girth is not going to go away on its own. As I watch my wife toiling away at the weights and on the treadmill I know that we are headed in opposite directions. I need a course correction. The initial formation of the 10 minute rule some 850 days ago was based upon the idea that it takes 30-90 days to form a habit. I want to try forming a new habit out of the bones of an old one. For the next 30 days I will complete some form of exercise, blogging about it in the Some Thoughts segment of the page.

Day one begins tomorrow with a detailed plan of attack. It is important that I complete some form of exercise every day and keep an accurate record of my exercise and other habits. The hardest part of my life is maintaining and reviewing a schedule enough to stick to it. Yet this is the very thing I need to master in order to be an effective manager in the workplace–the next logical progression of my profession.

From Bodyrock.tv to any number of posters and workout booklets and software, I am loaded with ways to commit and to keep it interesting. The real difficulty is in having the motivation to keep going. I can do that for 30 days.