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No freewrite again tonight. I suppose I am not quite there, but moreover I just exited Mission Impossible (6?) and find myself wanting to write about it. Specifically, I was thinking of an article I perused by a writer who praised the film while simultaneously calling himself a Fast and Furious fan. He compared the two series, which I’d never done up until that point and the comparison was apt: unreal and near magical stuff happening to people who are so skilled and powerful as to be characters from the comic books. However, I found a kernel difference in the two, which when you look closely, begins to unravel the entire comparison to the point where you realize that one is a shoddily crafted version of the other.

Let’s start with the big one: Stunts. We all know that Tom Cruise does his own stunt work. We know it so well that when going to the movie it is instantly a question of ‘what kind of nonsense is this man about to do?’ The answer in this film involves (no spoiler because it is legit in the adds and the opening credits) rides off a mountain with a parachute on his back. However, that isn’t the only bit of aerial nonsense he’s on about in this one. Contrary to Cruise’s sixty year old ass jumping off and out of things every movie, Vin Diesel doesn’t do his own stunts. Instead he develops scenes where the car is doing most of the stunting. Sadly, this lacks the impact that Mission Impossible does.

The impact continues to fade when you consider both the plots and context. Ethan Hunt is saving the world and preserving his family. Dom Toretto is largely protecting his family and occasionally helping governmental entities with ‘impossible missions’. There is a linkage there, and while both series are fun and both have some very clear similarities (note the party sequences in each film–because they’re there. They are very much the same), Mission comes off as a better written and acted bit of silliness in which you can at least hold on to the illusion of possibility. I think the Fast series left that behind right about… here:

Being back in the desert has gone about as well as can be expected, by which I mean not very well thus far. I shifted from an outdoor culture to a largely indoor one and did not compensate with gym time. I can tell myself I needed the time off but the reality is that I am lazier here and quicker to reach for games to fill the void. Knowing this is extremely helpful. It starts me on a path to find other things and other ways to be.

some Thoughts:

1. Started season 2 of jujitsu kaisen. I may be fading on anime overall, the way I faded on comic books as a kid. What I am looking for I’m not quite getting out of the medium right now.
2. people who do not exercise their passion—be it through a job or observation or action—will ultimately feel unfulfilled. I watch that go on a lot.
   
3. as much as I want to enjoy collaboration it requires the right partners. Sometimes I miss my old writing team.
4. I’m working on one project right now where I just met two new people with input and wow, they added a lot in one day. I’m a fan of people who bring ideas and intellect to the table.
   
5. don’t have a ton to say tonight. I need to get back to writing without thinking. I suspect that what comes out will be considerably more interesting than trying to think of the next thing to say.
   

This is a blog about scheme. I believe that scheme shapes the way that players perform. I believe coaches become attached to styles and that impacts the way the talent around them can perform. For example: before Mike McCarthy, Ezekiel Elliot was a top NFL running back. However following the arrival of the former Green Bay coach the scheme changes to one that stressed a passing attack and a multi-faceted and speed reliant backfield. Zeke didn’t have the traits to be successful and now he’s out of work. In truth, the entire league (outside of maybe four clubs) has gone away from the classic power run system and that means scheme has reshaped the rb position. Beyond that the position is now being viewed as expendable. This even trickles down to the HS ranks where my kids’ school is playing an under-sized safety at Rb as part of a five man rotation. The emphasis is on fresh backs who can run and catch. Will it work? Well it requires putting a lot of pressure on the secondary to win these short choice routes and a lot of pressure to cover wr in space. So if that is where you want to invest in talent, yeah: it works.

but football is also a game of trends and like with clothing the old trends eventually come back into fashion. I suspect we will see a return of the running backs in a few years. We will see it in college first and then the pros and then back down to the HS ranks where they’ll be training them up for the future.

I never missed a flight in my life… until I did. So now I’m spending another day in the paradise of Vancouver Island, awaiting a flight to the hot hot hot desert. Ten straight days of 110 or more. That is what my homecoming looks like. Needless to say, I’m less than enthusiastic about all of this. Meanwhile…

Some Thoughts:

1. Climate Change is definitely real now. The heat and the rain are combining to build what is going to be a devastating season of weather. People tend to forget that a start like this means more hurricanes later.
   
2. while I’ve long been a victim of the filter bubble, I more and more recognize this while outside of the US. The bubble shifts and I get news that is likely reflective of localized feeds that are being aggregated to create a feed supposedly representative of what I want to hear. Lately that’s weather… a lot of weather news. Oh, and movie news as usual.
3. speaking of which, I find it interesting that Mission Impossible is debuting tonight instead of the already pushed up Thursday release. Another day to build a box office record?
4. quite a bit harder to blog on a phone. Fat old fingers, you see…

I have far too many windows open on my laptop. It mirrors the absurd number of windows open on my phone, and it shows the number of windows open in my mind. I am not a scatterbrained person, but I am a person who carries too much at all times. There are forty windows open on the phone. Close to that number on the laptop. All of these combine to show that I believe that I need all of these tabs active in order to reach for the projects/conclusions/research I am presently engaged in. If I learn nothing else from this time abroad, I’ve learned this: I need to cut down on everything I am doing because I end up not doing any one thing very well. In other words, in order to be excellent one must focus on the object of excellence alone. I know that I am an intelligent person. To be able to reach for and juggle so many windows and projects only serves to confirm that for me. However, that level of brain strain is reductive at best.

Instead, look to the key tenets of focus…

1. Keep an active and lively journaling system. I have so many things that run through my mind that I should be making a list of them and, once I am done with what I am working on, going to the next item on that list of things that pop into my mind as I work. Normally I just open a window with the intention to get back to it… Obvious fail.
2. Accept the things you cannot do. I’m paraphrasing AA here, but it works all the same. Acceptance is a huge part of workflow. If you try to do everything, then nothing gets done very well. So, focus on what can be done and mentally allow yourself to set the rest aside.
3. Be better…to you. I love ellipses. That pause between statements opens the door to so much meaning. In this case it bridges the gap between self improvement and self-allowance. We are biological machines that need care. Make sure to take care of your machine parts–be it the mental or physical side. You have to be in condition to grind through the tough days. I turn summer into an adventure, because I know the fall is going to be a rough grind of responsibility.

Here is a strange truth: I became complacent over the last decade.

It didn’t happen at once. It was a slow burn that ate through my forward thinking and had me following behind creative nonsense in a ‘yeah, let’s go with that’ mode. I let my voice fall silent for no reason at all. I think it might feel better if I did it to be in the good graces of someone or something or did it because I thought it would lead to an opportunity to have my voice heard or do a hugely creative project at some point, but none of that is true. I did what came easy and let others take the lead in directing where this wonderful world of writing we were creating went. I think about it every day now–especially knowing that I found myself on a project I never actually intended or wanted to be on but was there by request of a team of writers that has shrunk by a 3rd since we got the job. Even in the writing of that proposal I was complacent.

Yet, as I think about a way forward with my own writing I find that I am no longer interested in complacency. I want to do bold things and address new challenges and, above all else, be freaking creative. There’s this old saying goes like (and I’m definitely paraphrasing here) this: If you aren’t living then you’re dying. I believe in that fundamentally. I believe that as my creativity has dwindled, my ability to grow and move forward as a person dwindles beside it. So, I am really done with all of that. I’m done with holding myself back for the purpose of complacency or for what might sell better.

I’m ready to do my own thing.

I spent the day chasing waterfalls. I drove the coast of Vancouver Island chasing down a siting of one beach waterfall after the next. By lunch the lady and I were camped underneath a summer-dried waterfall catching slow-drip sprinkles as we played scrabble. This is the sort of life that ignites my best self. Long have I discussed the power water has over my imagination and creativity. Often I ‘unlock’ myself by turning on the sound of rain on my computer as I work. It is a calming element that, for me, is enough to drown out any outside reality that threatens to barge its way in.

I’m going home in a few days, and that means trying to create a version of this togetherness and this schedule at home. I’m concerned that I’ll fail, because I do every time. However, I keep trying to keep a piece of that joy and chill—that sound of rushing water—with me, because it is in that deluge that I most often rediscover peace, and perhaps the best parts of myself.

some thoughts:

1. It is time to get back to the Justice Engine. As soon as this current novel and these other two projects are handled I’m going to get it moving and try to get that story on paper the way it wants to be told—not the way I’m forcing myself to tell it.
   
2. love isn’t tricky. It just takes perseverance and perspective.
   
3. On a side note, I may have discovered the worlds best croissant. Well, by discover I mean stumbled upon what everyone in Victoria, BC already knows: Crust. Just google it. Seriously.
4. Now I’m going to put my phone away and go wash my hands under the Sandcut Beach Waterfall

I should post a freewrite, but it is after 10 pm and what little brain energy I have left is already fleeing for the night. I’ve been trying to reactivate myself. I walk at least four miles every day and, up until two days ago I was working out in the gym nearly every day. I’m slipping because I’m wearing myself out, but also because I am very lazy when it comes to doing things I don’t want to do. Mike Tyson is quoted with saying “Discipline is doing what you hate to do, but nonetheless doing it like you love it.” I love that quote, but struggle with following through. It isn’t even that I hate exercise. It doesn’t interest me. I struggle with doing what doesn’t fire off the dopamine in my brain. Of course, physical activity is known to increase dopamine (according to animal testing at least), but that hit doesn’t come as fast or as direct as playing a game of Pokemon Live. Such is the world we live in–where working out is a chore more than a lifestyle.

Getting right is key to being a writer.

It is just taking a lot longer than I thought it would… and it is quite a bit more difficult.

Continuing from where I left off yesterday. The goal was, at first, to get four games into the schedule, but I wound up with only time for one. Now I’m moving to week two… but before that, I thought I might share the full ‘set list’ if you will. The games are as follows:

Vs. Perry

Vs. Williams Field

@ Valley Vista

@ Hamilton (Nationally ranked #55)

Game 2 vs. Williams Field is interesting. See, the boy grew up with a kid who plays there now, so it is kind of a friendship mashup game. It is also a game where they have 7 v 7 experience vs. the opposing team. So, we are talking about two teams very familiar with each other’s play style and passing game. This leads me to think the ground attack will be the determining factor. WF is a better football team than Perry, and will be the hardest of the first three games. I also think that the week 1 win will be an important boost leading into this matchup. DV needs to feel confidence in order to play well, and the team’s streaky QB play could factor in big. You cannot have a solid run game unless you have an unstoppable RB/Line or a QB who keeps them from stacking the box. We don’t have that. We have a kid who will be rushed relentlessly and may crack a bit under that pressure. Expect short passes and reliance on his top two wideouts. On the defensive side of the ball, this is where the pass D will be challenged greatly. They need to be able to respond to the underneath stuff and not get too locked in that they miss that one big play over the top. Still, outcome is a W. 2-0 in my book, and already tied for last season.

I’m gonna talk a little High School football here.

I won’t go into the chances my youngest winds up on varsity. Frankly, I want to see the kid play his way up during the season. That being said, it would be lovely to see him and his big bro suited up together again and to have that picture to carry with me moving forward. Until then, the focus is to be on each individual excelling. It the time I have for this blog I cannot really go too deep into the season, so I’ll just start with the first game. Each is an important step towards building a team culture. These kids have dealt with a new coach every single year of their High School careers. This level of change is unprecedented in the state, and them winning more than 2 games (what they won last year) given the situation and schedule would feel like a coup.

It all starts with Perry. This is a school that competed well last year. They crushed DV 24-7 in a game that showed that DV had little heart. It looks like the heart issue will be front and center in this one, with Perry coming in with a larger and better and more experienced squad. That being said, the DV offense is good enough to generate a few scores this time around and the defense is more stout in the secondary, meaning there will be turnovers. I say DV takes a win. A close but much needed win! Two more to go, but starting at one means the heart issue might be fixed out the gate.

Some Thoughts:

1. The Madden problem is far from resolved. At least we are at a place of understanding why the promised 50% off is not happening. So, the system is designed to plug in the EAplay discount (10%) instead of the 50, which means we don’t get the promised discount if we have already be loyal subscribers to EAplay. So, by supporting EA more we get less than what was promised. I see this as a problem.