910. The Secretary and the President

The college I used to work at has a split personality. Many prefer to hire from within, while others prefer to hire outside. I was always torn on that account. When you hire from within you know what you get and you get someone familiar with the culture. You can even train them to be the kind of employee you feel you need. This is all good. To a point.

The college I used to work for hired a secretary who became an administrative assistant who became a Dean. This is where I feel the system breaks down. This person can easily continue that trajectory, becoming a VP at a college and eventually becoming a college president. What is wrong with that? I think it undermines the very nature of the academic schema. I believe all college presidents should spend a significant amount of time as faculty. You have to understand both sides of the business in order to really administrate the business. While I admire what it takes to go from scheduling meetings and answering phones as the front door for an administrator to being that administrator and finally that administrator’s ultimate boss, I feel that journey wipes away the ability to understand the academic side of operation from a practical standpoint.

I’ve struggled with this for some time, and I see it happening time and again. There needs to be a clear pathway to advancement, but right now, in some places, it is easier to go from Secretary to President than it is to go from Faculty to President. That isn’t how it should be.

Some Thoughts:

1. Day two of Nano and I have yet to touch my novel. Failure in progress…

909. On to Nano!

November is National Novel Writing Month. For the first time I have actually registered for the month (under the name fastdos) and intend to do what I can to compose a novel. Doing what you can has been the real tragedy of this semester. I don’t claim that I have been the best teacher this year, and to thicken the bad news I think I may have turned a group of writers away from the novel. I subjected them to the harsh reality of writing a novel on a tight schedule. Thus far, all but one has failed to meet the deadlines for the course at the word level requested.

Long story short, once they failed to deliver at the level they believe I expected, many of the students became dismayed and dejected. I think I am on the verge of losing them forever. This is wholly my fault. I did not explain the requirements clearly and what I did explain was so much of a top end expectation that it proved to be too much for most of them. Still, the class is about Planning and Structuring the Novel, so what they’ve all done is so far beyond my quiet and unstated actual expectations that I am super proud of the accomplishments. They can now approach the novel with realistic understanding and expectations.

I’m not proud of the way things went down for the students. I have a lot of making up to do in order to restore trust and understanding, but I know that I haven’t burned the bridges so completely that they will not recover.

908. Waiver Wednesday

9-5. I made some bold predictions and they panned out. it was the simple stuff I missed. 73-45 after a nearly identical week to the last one. The wins put me 10 behind Mortensen and 11 behind Wickersham who rocketed up to 83 wins with an 11-3 week. I need one of those weeks, or even one better to reach closer to the sun.

KC over SD

DEN over CIN

BAL over CLE

GB over AZ

CHI over TEN

MIA over IND

CAR over WSH

DET over JAC

HOU over BUF

TB over OAK

SEA over MIN
I said it before: Seattle is lethal at home.

NYG over PIT
I’m hesitant about the call, given the troubles in NY and the fact that NY loses home games more than road ones. However, Pitt is experiencing the same troubles, so the mental game is even.

ATL over DAL
Dallas will snap out of it, but not against a very hot Atlanta team that knows how to defend the pass.

NO over PHI
New Orleans is due for another win. Philly needs a win, but their season is likely over. Save for a likely late season thrashing of the Giants, it is going to be tough going for the Eagles.

907. On Being Overwhelmed

I know that Mondays are my natural night for self-reflection, but sometimes revelations–even epiphanies–need to be addressed the moment they happen. This one is a long time coming I suppose. I also suppose those who know me best may wonder how I missed it for 37 years. Heck, I cannot even believe I am 37 years old (which is quite old to me still–nearly 40 y’know), so that explains why what is right in front of my face is so hard to see.

If all people have a fight or flight response, my response mechanism to intense work is flight. It damned me in football. It damns me as I try to get back in shape, and it damns me most of all as a writer. Presently I am working on a handful of contract assignments and a ton of grading for classes. I am, of course, behind. The issue is complicated by three kids, but as I’ve gotten older I have found my way to more excuses and fewer answers. I am struggling, not with motivation, but with understanding how to fathom the waters of work I find myself drowning in.

The web tells me it is all in my head. Jerry Oltion of the Science Fiction Writer’s Association says I should set page quotas per day. Good idea, Jerry, but I struggle to find reasonable consequence for the failure to meet quota. I don’t really have money to put aside, and if forced to do so it would only be a benefit. I hardly have time to game, so withholding that is equally useless.

What about reaching my potential?

Malcolm Gladwell says if I work 6 hrs a day at my craft, it should take me roughly four and a half years to reach my potential as a writer (this discounts experience thus far). So, maybe in that time I will have it beat. Of course, I don’t devote that time to the craft or the required responsibilities.

I guess it requires going back to the beginning and back to scheduling and sticking to the basics. I suppose I need to do what I tell everyone else to do. I need to carve out 3hrs of my day and dedicate it to the craft–be it through grading work, reading it, or writing it. Maybe an hour minimum for each.

The trick is to get started and ignore the weight of the work around me. That has, and continues, to be the hardest part. I need to look inside myself, find that block of time and use it.

906. Reflections on a Monday Night: Early to Bed

First off, my prayers go out to those dealing with unprecedented flooding in NYC and all along the eastern seaboard. We know not why the weather is as it is, but we know now the extensive damage and fear it can wreak upon us. I may have been insensitive in some facebook photo postings earlier. I did not intend to offend, but instead to try to cast a reflective light on the moment. Consider my actions further proof of why I’m not quite ready to lead.

I am still leading though. I’m the HC (or HNIC) of two flag teams for the first time, well, ever. I’ve HC’d singular teams, but never two at once. This is my wheel house and my fear house rolled into one. I have a 8-9 team where I can feature a slice of the offense I learned in college and a 4-5 team where I will attempt to herd cats. Both have me equally excited to participate in and to watch my kids strive to be successful. I think #1 will do well and #2 may finally get the chance to shine as I thought he did in soccer. The soccer thing was a dissapointment. He came in second for MVP voting to the HC’s kid, who played well (but not as well as my boy IMHO).

FB is a chance for us all to have fun together and learn a lot. I plan to structure things quite a bit differently than the original HC. I’m going to hold a football camp to launch practice and really try to build core units within the team. I think the center-QB connection is so crucial that I may even pair kids up with a set center for a quarter. The pan is to have up to 4 QB’s a game and get them so locked in with the center that they have the dump off pass play wired into their muscle memory. They’ll be able to get 5-10 yards eyes closed. That tandem will know how to run the quick screen and the center handoff/handback as well, giving me additional plays for the team. As I said before, I want two set plays: a set pass and the RB option pass. I want good decision making based on what is happening on the field. I want field general quarterbacks.

I may want far too much. Something else I want is a good night’s sleep. The wife does her nursing thing tomorrow, so I am on the way to a 5 am wake up call. better be prepared…

905. On the Cabin in the Woods

Finally had a chance to see Cabin in the Woods and somehow managed to avoid all of the spoilers. That will not be the case for readers here. This will be spoilerific. Follow the jump if you dare continue…

Cabin in the Woods does more than challenge the traditional horror formula. It gives that formula a purpose and a larger structure by which to be measured. The new mythos centers around ‘The Old Gods’ who are a malevolent bunch, possibly ripped right out of the old testament. These Gods want their yearly sacrifice, but it isn’t enough to merely slay a whore, a virgin, a jester, and a jock (the standard horror complex). You have to kill with style. The victims need to suffer according to the familiar tropes of horror. In this respect, there is a global organization responsible for storing these horrors, collecting unwitting victims and releasing them according to design. The movie follows one such yearly happening from the perspective of the techs working the, well, murders and the victims experiencing a weekend getaway gone wrong.

What makes the film so spectacular is how they bring it all together. There are elements of every horror movie I’ve ever heard of and it is all slapped together sensibly. If the horrors win, the world continues. If the horrors lose, the world is the property of the Old Gods once again. You’ll be surprised how it turns out and why.

Some Thoughts:

  1. Mark ‘Sanchize’ needs to be benched. I don’t care how much money you’ve paid to play him or how bad it would look approaching the possibility of a trade. Sanchez has awful accuracy that declines sharply past 30 yards. He is a poor decision maker on 3rd down and is constantly hovering near or (more often) below 50% a completion rate. He is Romo with far less success. I don’t know if Tebow is the answer, but he deserves a chance to prove what he can accomplish in this offense. The smattering of snaps he’s had are meaningless if not given the chance to carry at least a full series of downs.
  2. Fell asleep after the first quarter of the Giants-Cowboys game. The score was 23 – 0 GMen. Woke up in the 3rd facing a 1 pt deficit. Apparently the team fell asleep when too.
  3. Woke up before dawn to the sounds of someone moving around my room. Turns out it was a kid, nervous about not being able to turn the bathroom light on. The power was out for the whole area. At first I thought the zombie apocalypse had begun. I soon discovered a drunk driver had taken out a transformer. It took six hours to get the lights on again.

904. A Beer Before Sleeping

From time to time I delve into conversations about talismans–wards or symbols designed to portray some level of understanding and even unify a population. Today’s talk is about beer. There are few more defining masculine elements than beer. We are at the point where drinking beer means you are a man. I know this, because when I drink mixed drinks  (often the pink kind), people find it gives them reason to challenge my masculinity. This challenge does not always arise from men. Often women question my manhood when they see me kicking back a cosmopolitan. What about me as a person changes from the moment I am drinking a Cosmo to the moment I’m drinking a Coors Light? Nothing does, and everything does, because the perception of who I am becomes so narrowly focused on the seemingly incongruous drink in my hand. It stands out, and suddenly questions become assumptions and blossom into fears.

Beer is marketed as a man’s drink. Beer commercials show hearty men kicking back a drink with friends and circling the bar for prey. By prey I mean women, as the entire operation is a mirror of animalistic mating rituals. We men, who were once hunters and gatherers, must proudly shout our masculinity by displaying the most desirable traits of our gender to the other gender–and even to our own kind. Those traits are not the ones you might imagine on the surface. Unlike we expect women to do, we don’t thrust out our sexual parts in hopes of being noticed. If anything, we abhor those who do so. Men are expected to be judged by a different set of symbols. We are expected to be judged by how tough and manly we appear to be.

At some point beer became manly. This is even more the case than hard liquor. There is a peculiar connotation to hard liquor that separates the drinks from beer. In fact, different types of hard liquor have different connotations, based primarily on social strata. Vodka is easily accessible to the moderately wealthy, so it conveys a since of class and danger. On the other hand, truly fine whiskey is reserved for the wealthiest echelon. I’ve known shots of whiskey to go for upwards of $55.

So, what about beer? Beer is man water at a bar. Beer sends the message that you are a social drinker and that you understand that men are expected to behave a certain way in that environment. Drink beer or be seen as an outsider, or at least as different. Even within beer there are strata. I drink Stella (though not as a strata–for taste), which is seen as a bit more of a connoisseur taste than, say, Coors or Pabst Blue Ribbon. The message inherent in the selection is that I don’t settle for the cheap crap.

I’m a symbolic interaction theorist, and I believe all of the interactions we have between each other are governed by symbols that are meant to have shared meaning. Understanding and agreeing upon what these symbols mean is the quickest path to clear and agreed upon communication.

Some Thoughts:

  1. Weak post yesterday. I apologize for that. As it turns out, posting with your eyes half-closed and your consciousness sagging is not an effective plan. However, it became a learning moment. I learned that I don’t do well after 9pm unless I have coffee. This is further proof of my caffeine addiction. Well, if I have to be addicted to something this is much better than alcohol, drugs, gambling, or even sex.

903. Friday Night Fun

A few days ago I started a conversation about the difficulty of creating a TV show that maintains continuity and evolves story from start to finish. I found myself enthralled by Haven tonight and thought, this show is making it work. Haven is based in part off of Stephen King’s The Colorado Kid. The show started a year or two back, drawing heavily on the fiction of King to create a town where nearly everyone suffers from a ‘trouble’. Being troubled is a nice way of saying these people all have some form of mutant power.

As the show developed, it focused in on a main character, Audrey. Turns out she has lived many lives, all of them in Haven. The show focuses on the quest to stop her from dying or disappearing before another of these lives emerge.

It isn’t BSG, but this is another example of a show that has a chance to pull it all together in the end. I think the key to that is not being open ended. You have to know when you want it to end, because all good scripting is about drawing the lines from that end back to the beginning.

902. Big Brother, Person of Interest, and the theory of Digital Benevolence

The majority of films about computer intelligence ascribe human principles to the machine. They create the impression that machines, if allowed to gain consciousness and thrive, will actively seek to enslave or destroy man. What if the speculators are wrong? I don’t see why a machine brain would even want to busy itself with the destruction of humanity. On the other hand, I can see why humanity would attempt to destroy it.

We are incapable of believing in benevolence. Even our concept of God is born from fire and brimstone. Given our proclivity for binary confrontations, there will always be an us vs. them mentality. Thus, the only way to unit all of us humans is to have a them–non human. I think we’re seeing the beginning of this philosophy budding in books like 1984 and shows like Person of Interest where an overarching presence watches all that we do. POI treats the force, a semi-autonomous knowledge construct, as benevolent. It has a singular purpose of discovering threats and informing the law of those threats. It has a side gig of telling its creator of smaller threats as well, which is the focus of the show. This system is powerful and intelligent and does, on occasion, take the initiative to help its creator accomplish goals.

Is this a possible future? Surely. We have the technology and the connectivity to make these things a reality. Ideas such as the cell phone hacking concept that bubbled up in The Dark Knight are not born in the darkness. They come from scientific fact and attempt. Will the force we create be benevolent? Only as much so as the creators allow.

 

Some Thoughts:

  1. The new Iron Man film looks better than the 2nd, which isn’t very hard. Still, it may be the case that Iron Man III will be better than I. I hope they do a six film run that is spectacular throughout.
  2. I really do need that vacation.
  3. Tough class again today. I often feel extremely disrespected by the students. They should be there to learn, but they are not. I am at the point that the next student who disrespects me will be thrown out of the classroom.

901. Waiver Wednesday

Turns out I’m quite prophetic. I said MJD would speak up with his feet and he did, to the tune of a possible Lisfrancs injury in the first quarter of a game that quickly dissolved into a loss. So was my week. 8-5, and I still haven’t one a single fantasy football match up this season. 0-7 puts me quite close to being out of the playoffs. Maybe I’m long since out, but some part of me is an optimist and thinks that I can squirm into the top six.

In terms of the picks, I’m in the top 4 with Wickersham (71 – 33) and Mortensen (73 – 31) ahead of me. I am tied with Jaworski at 64 – 40. This week promises to be exciting. There are several games on the docket that could wind up being upsets and a few more that are nearly too close to call. I’m calling all of them.

TB over MIN
Historically, Tampa owns this match up. While history doesn’t mean so much given the new coaching staff in Tampa, one truth that holds up is the Tampa D and the relative 1 dimensionality of the MIN passing attack. If Tampa can take away #12, they can stack the line against AP.

CAR over CHI
Carolina needs a win like I need a raise. Their continued existence depends upon it. I say they wake up this week and get that W.

CLE over SD
This is my upset pick. Cleveland is emerging as a low level threat, and SD doesn’t do too well with those. I’m not sure how the superstars will perform on the CLE offense, but with nothing to lose, I see them winning.

GB over JAC
MJD? Done. Without his consistency, I doubt JAC can run the sort of ball control game they need to in order to keep Rodgers off the field.

IND over TEN
This should really be a big fantasy week for me. I may find my way to a win. Just like INDY

NE over STL
I want NE to lose so bad, but I cannot believe that STL has the firepower to make that happen. AZ lost in the ‘louis, but that was because of an offensive blackout. Trust Belicheck to read his notes from last week and make the proper adjustments.

NYJ over MIA
Jets aren’t that bad. Miami is though.

PHI over ATL
You fire a coach and people start to notice. Expect blanket coverage on the top two receivers. This will expose the relative weakness of the ATL running game. Better now than in the playoffs where they will likely be jacked by Green Bay.

WSH over PIT
PIT is reeling, despite some good games. I see a team that is pulling out wins, but is playing inconsistent football. Washington is playing good ball right now, and they are in a desperate dogfight to catch up to the Giants before the two teams meet again. Point-Washington.

OAK over KC
KC is terrible. Rarely have a seen a team so flat out bad and overlooked as they are. When you are so grossly overshadowed in your own town by, well, the RAMS! you stink.

NYG over DAL
Giants have never lost a game at the new Dallas Stadium. I don’t think they fall to the 3-3 Cowboys, especially with Murray on the bench. Jones is fumble prone and the QB turns it over more than even Sanchize…

NO over DEN
Who dat gon beat dem Saints? Everyone apparently. I don’t see Denver continuing this trend. Not with the heart of the Saints D back in action, and cool Brees throwing well.

SF over AZ
I am really torn here. Kolb is a better decision maker than Skelton, so if he were playing I would give the win to AZ. The Cardinal D has been stunning–especially at home. However, if the Cards cannot score, the Cards cannot win. Thus is what it will be.