887. Waiting for Superman: The Myth of Barack Obama

When I think of America I think of hope. I think of a place where the people are successful, and in most ways better than the rest of the world. I am programmed that way. It started in preschool when they told me we were better and I could be everything and anything I wanted to be. The problem deepened when I entered sports and my modicum of talent meant opportunities to go further, to escape and bring what I had gained back to the place where I lived. People pinned their hopes on me. They thought I could represent them, even save their perceptions of themselves with my own success. When I started to deconstruct a lot of these memories they aligned with what I was seeing from the political response to Barack Obama. Wrapped in my own failures are the answers to why Barack Obama will never be as good as the hype.

We Americans want to be saved. We invest in Lottery tickets and penny stocks. We gamble voraciously, participate in sweepstakes, and apply for more game shows than seems possible. We want that quick fix. We want to put out minimal effort and get maximum return. Of course we do. This is the business model of corporate America. Corps minimize risk and maximize returns, which is why the insurance corps don’t want to insure people who have been or already are sick. It is a bad bet. It will cost them money and effort. Why not take the easy route?

For most Americans, 2008 presented an easy route, or so it seemed. We elected Obama with the promise of hope and change. If you follow the present election it seems like we expected all of that change and all of our hopes to be fulfilled in 4 years. We expected to elect Obama and instantly see America back on top. In other words, we were waiting for Superman to come along and save the day. Only, Superman does not exist. Real change, real reform from centuries of practice takes longer than 4 years. Because of our get it now mentality, we are unwilling to wait for change. The smartest politicians take advantage of that and they remain in office because they can produce immediate and visible results, even if the results are flash without any substance.

As a kid, people treated me lie I would be Superman. They felt my good fortune would come back upon them instantly. It takes time to give back to the community. It takes time to invoke change. The problem is that people can no longer wait for change. They want it now. They want Superman. Well, he isn’t coming,

886. Reflections on a Monday Night

37 yrs and I’ve learned something new each one. This year’s lesson is about impressions. See, they change very quickly. People expect a lot of you and then the see how you handle it and they, sometimes, expect far less. How you respond to the decreased pressure says everything about your ability to lead and be successful.

The only problem is I haven’t organized my response to the situation. Not yet. I’m slogging along, trying to assemble the various threads of important activity and doing all of it during business hours and, when possible, between 9 and 2 AM. This of course is unhealthy, because it pares back the couple time I have with my wife to nothing and my time to pursue personal writing to far below nothing.

How do I reconcile this? I am not really sure about that part yet. You’d think after 37 yrs I would have found a way to recognize how my life works on a daily basis and make space for all of the parts of life and forms of happiness I think I need. Sadly, no such luck.

Instead I slip away to the worlds displayed on my TV and live vicariously through the wonderful characters portrayed on screen. TV is a wonderful escape, and everyone needs one. The problem lives in not having the time to escape and to dwell in the now. Or at least in not being able to calculate the time to do both.

 

Some Thoughts:

  1. I have lost every fantasy football match up this season. I am hardly a threat to make the playoffs, which mean $100 gone. Where the f–k did I spend it?