Day: October 23, 2019

Due to a failure to stream players I have dropped to 8th in my money league. This means I am 3-4 with a low enough amount of points scored to fall behind the other 3-4 teams. I am 3rd in my own division, but that is largely meaningless in terms of playoffs, I believe. So far as I suspect, the top 6 advance to the playoffs with a 3 week system in place. I am fairly uncertain how to get back on top of things, because I have crap for players and continue to fail at recruiting for major positions such as Running Back. To make a long story short, I don’t have high chances of success in this league.

On the other side of the spectrum my Beach Born League is going a lot better for me. I lost the last game (and 1st place) entirely on a failure to start the reliable players, but despite many talents being on a bye week I have a solid chance to pull a W this week and stay in the hunt for first.

I’m thinking about the trophy situation for this league. I am torn between the belt and the trophy with multiple slots for names. We can put at least 6 years into this thing, and that could make the trophy worthwhile. Each winner gets to keep it for a year. I am also considering the ‘dud’ trophy where the last place person gets a small but weak sauce trophy but it also awards them first pick in the draft next season with the remaining players randomized. That way absolute failure is rewarded. I want to talk that last part over with the partner to see how she feels about it.

Generally speaking it has been good to get back to fantasy. While my lack of player knowledge exposed me in the early goings of the money league, I am learning in leaps and bounds and feel confident of a season 2 rebound followed by utter domination on out. It helps that I finally know how the league is scored. Drafting a team under the auspices of PPR really messed me up in the early goings and continues to sting now.

The internet is not working at the time I am making this post. Still, the work must continue. Today I found myself at the doc for the first time in well over a decade. I was in because of suspicion of High Blood Pressure. Turns out it was a lot more than just a suspicion. Here is the thing: The PA (didn’t even get a doc) immediately suggested medication. I’m being indirect here. She said I would be taking a specific medicine forever. There were no other options offered or provided upon additional questioning. She did make the caveat of giving me one of the milder meds. This does not hearten my belief in the medical establishment. The care was quite mechanical and not at all tailored to my specific person. It was basically, ‘here are your numbers and here is what happens next’. This doesn’t work for me, and I don’t know what else is possible at this point.

There are holistic ways to get the numbers down. It starts with healthy eating (no salts, yo), and weight loss. A man my height ought to weigh 190. I am more than 20 above the threshold, so I gotta change stuff. As my partner suggests, it is about a difficult change of lifestyle that includes daily exercise and deepened awareness of what I put in my system. I do not have the freedom to eat whatever I want and sit around all day. That part of my life is clearly over. It is clearly difficult to come to terms with that part of my life being over.

Some Thoughts:

1. Internet just kicked in. Strange outages here that make no sense.
2. I need to discover a love of nutritious foods.
3. I need to discover what the term ‘nutritious foods’ actually means….