The internet is not working at the time I am making this post. Still, the work must continue. Today I found myself at the doc for the first time in well over a decade. I was in because of suspicion of High Blood Pressure. Turns out it was a lot more than just a suspicion. Here is the thing: The PA (didn’t even get a doc) immediately suggested medication. I’m being indirect here. She said I would be taking a specific medicine forever. There were no other options offered or provided upon additional questioning. She did make the caveat of giving me one of the milder meds. This does not hearten my belief in the medical establishment. The care was quite mechanical and not at all tailored to my specific person. It was basically, ‘here are your numbers and here is what happens next’. This doesn’t work for me, and I don’t know what else is possible at this point.
There are holistic ways to get the numbers down. It starts with healthy eating (no salts, yo), and weight loss. A man my height ought to weigh 190. I am more than 20 above the threshold, so I gotta change stuff. As my partner suggests, it is about a difficult change of lifestyle that includes daily exercise and deepened awareness of what I put in my system. I do not have the freedom to eat whatever I want and sit around all day. That part of my life is clearly over. It is clearly difficult to come to terms with that part of my life being over.
Some Thoughts:
- Internet just kicked in. Strange outages here that make no sense.
- I need to discover a love of nutritious foods.
- I need to discover what the term ‘nutritious foods’ actually means….