4.333. Love Story

” I love you” He said. Her face scrunched up in that specific way that made him think she was about to cry. He started to say something else but his brain, little more than a biological computer with no real emotional intelligence beyond that which she fed to him or he picked up from the constant feed of bad television relationships had already ceased functioning in a rational way. That computer did not recognize how the facial input followed the verbal statement and thus he did not know how to act.

“I love you too.” She said, and then she turned away. He didn’t know if she was going to cry. He watched her walk away from him, their small bedroom becoming it’s own de-militarized zone; her footsteps soft pops on the cold tile. He was going into the bathroom and she was going into her annex. He’d tried to name the space her ‘Apertif’ because it sounded cool. She decided not to name it, because she hadn’t found a name she was comfortable with. It was her space, not his just as the bathroom was his space, not hers. The biological computer that he called a brain processed those two variables and openly wondered if this was language and thought she put to the spaces or, like everything else, was this his own interpretation and by that he meant, misinterpretation.

The stained glass double doors shut behind her and he wondered again if she was crying and what it meant when someone cried when you told them you loved them.

Some Thoughts:

  1. Well, that character clearly has a lot to work on emotionally.

4.332. Reflections on Weekend of Riots

I am angry. Everyone I see on TV and on social media is angry for one reason or another. We’ve gone over the tipping point and the result has been extremely violent. Today authorities fired tear gas and rubber bullets into a crowd of protesters in front of the White House, ostensibly so the president could have a photo-op walk to a nearby church that caught fire. It makes sense on the part of security–you don’t know who is in the crowd and a threat, so if the president is walking out there, you gotta take them out. Only, that entire situation is the result of a president who doesn’t think about anything but his ego and optics. So, yeah, I am angry.

I am angry at the looters who are making everyone else protesting look bad while stealing the spotlight. I am angry at police for the institutionalized racism that created this situation. This is a known and has been for the entire history of the United States. We were stupid to even speak out loud that having a black president somehow indicated all that had changed. It indicated progress and a shift in voting power. That’s all.

So, I am angry, drained, and unsure how to move from this moment. I think we all are.

Some Thoughts:

  1. Might be moving–not from the moment but from my home of nearly a decade.