Day: September 18, 2022

I get to watch the Giants in 30 minutes.

Thich Nhat Hanh once wrote, “Waking up this morning, I smile. Twenty-four brand new hours are before me. I vow to live fully in each moment and to look at all beings with eyes of compassion” I too vow to live the day with compassion and joy. I intend to make the most out of each day. I will imbibe joy as much as possible. I will not dwell in the negative and I will be happy with who I am as an individual. All my faults, all my bad parts are equal in sum to my good parts. They together make me the person that I am and I must embrace that person.

This does not mean I do not strive to be better. I accept who I am and where I am. For example, I tend to dwell on things that don’t matter at all to others–taking me out of the moment I am in with them and into the moment of dwell. I can control when that happens. I can be far more present. I can do this and still dwell in an appropriate time and place when it does not impact those around me.

I must learn to embrace these difficulties as challenges to be overcome. As I stand I have allowed myself to become overwhelmed by challenges. This must not be so. Every challenge has its place in the hierarchy and I must learn to establish both that hierarchy and the ability to shift between challenges when I have an appropriate means to respond.

It is a really beautiful day outside and I am alive. This is all good news. It is important to fall into a little bit of good news once in a while in order to avoid feeling like everything is awful. If I’ve learned one thing about myself it is that the good stuff generally gets ignored, and the problems become focal. This makes me a shit romantic partner and kind of ruins my chances as a human being in general. So, I’m working on that.

I suspect we can all use a little bright in our lives. I could hop in the pool today and enjoy what that has to offer. I actually have a pool. This is not a thing I suspected would be a part of my life throughout the better part of my life, so that is a nice moment of reflection.

In general I am trying to take stock of the good as I come to terms with the not so good moving forward. I cannot allow myself to dwell heavily on the bad, because that is what leads to the dark side. Seriously, ask Anakin.

Some Thoughts:

1. I severely injured myself… while sleeping. I don’t have a clue how it happened. It may be a torn rotator cuff, but the pain stems from a spot above the tricep, which by every website (yeah, i know I need a real doctor) indicates a form of tendonitis or bursitis. Hopefully it is just that and not a tear.