Day: December 19, 2023

I’ve been working on this novel again–trying to get back into the flow of it after several major interruptions. In a perfect life I wouldn’t have interruptions and be able to stay seated deep within the world and my understanding of the characters, but that is not the world I live in at present. There are… distractions. In addition to other projects I find that I just cannot get locked into a rhythm. That, more than anything else, is what I need in order to be successful. I have this novel coming up, and two more on the docket after that. I am stoked to have all these opportunities, but I need to do what is needed to take advantage of the opportunities and fulfill the responsibility of those same opportunities.

Some Thoughts:

1. I learned about the serious connection between weight and memory. This shocks me. I have gained a lot of weight over the past two decades and a lot of weight over the past year. I am at 242 presently and the last time I mentioned it in the blog I was at 238. That’s 4 lbs in what? a month? This needs to be turned around. Quickly.
2. Watching Voltron vehicle force again. It is not good. It lacks the lore and interesting characters of the GoLion series and feels, for lack of a better term, like a money grab through the first 3 episodes.
3. Nobody reads the blog anymore–not even my partner. I am aware of that and it’s okay. It is the truth of a writer that you are writing for an audience, but you’re really writing for yourself, because the words need to come out regardless of who reads them. It is a calling. This blog didn’t start as that. It started as a way to keep me on track with daily writing, developed into a strange form of public therapy, and now it is simply the way.

Yesterday’s blog is living proof (because nothing is ever gone from the internet) that multi-tasking doesn’t work for me. I was listening to these ghost stories, you see. I had a ten minute blog and a ten minute video and I thought that might go well. It did not. I kept looking over at the video to catch sight of the alleged apparitions. I just don’t do well with split attention. This is something I’ve known for a lifetime, but I keep on keeping on. I suppose there are things about oneself that are extremely hard to change. One of those things for me is the tendency to put health last. I probably should be in the gym right now. However, it takes longer for the gym to show effects than it does for me to write a novel, so guess where it ends up on the list?

We are not quite to the resolutions list that is sure to come, but I do think it is important to ‘pre-game’ and strategize the important changes in life. I’ve been thinking about what that looks like for me moving forward. I may be retiring soon–2025 is the closest option. So, how does that change the game? On the one hand it hurts the wallet, but on the other it gives me more time to sink into who and what I want to be with the rest of my life. I’m not really sure who that is. I’m going to plan the what with my partner, and I am learning each day that this means more than–let’s do what you want, love.