Yesterday was a junk post. We get those. We’ll take those. It happens.
Today is not likely to be as bad, but I will admit to feeling some of the same vibes. I’m missing keys when I type and having to go back over things once even twice. This is not to say I am having trouble dragging up thoughts but to say I am struggling with the actualization of those thoughts. Part of the problem right now is feeling the adrenaline drain from me following watching my kid run a race on the national stage. He came in second, which was solid (5th overall) but watching that lead slip away was tough. He didn’t even break his PR, which made it even tougher. The other athlete is on the field as we speak playing in a 7 on 7 seeding round for a tournament (two actually as he is double rostered). I’m not there. Not because I cannot be, but because I don’t want to be.
Why? It is a valid question to ask. I made the choice not to be at every event. If I am always there then my life is watching them play and I don’t get to do the other things that bring me joy and don’t have the time to get work done. I feel like I should go sometimes and pick and choose the things I attend–not like when they were young and I was always there. Heck, if that were the case I should be in California at that national meet. The key is balance. Gotta find it in your life.
Some Thoughts:
- The opening of the game Control is definitely unintentional ASMR.