I am going to interpret today as a fail. When I go back through this blog in a future Turnback Tuesday and go over my week, there is going to be no other way to interpret this. I did not put in the work I needed to put in today. I started late, I worked very little, and I wrote less than a thousand words on the day. Heck, the production across these ten minutes may rival what I was able to put down over the course of hours writing on this current project. Why? Distractions–internal and external. I struggle at times to maintain focus and get the work done. I do not always have it in me to lock in and follow through on the work. I do not have a space in which I can block out all distractions and be forced to put in that work. I used to experiment with leaving the house to go somewhere else to get locked in, but it costs money to go anywhere beyond my office at work, and the work office comes with its own set of social issues, distractions, and work. The hardest thing for me to do in life is not be distracted and stay zoned in on the writing that I am doing. While I realize this serves as a red flag to those who want to hire me (or read my work) and read this blog, I have to be honest. Heck, ten plus years of the dang blog argues I have been consistently honest about this process and still manage to get through these projects in spite of my personal drawbacks.
I don’t want to get through projects though. I want to be able to maintain focus through a project and get the work done faster so I can generate more projects and have more and better writing experiences. I am tired of being only a middling writer. I need to ball out.