8.270.

Two for the price of one this morning.

One of those (increasingly) rare days where I didn’t publish a previous post. Ironically it probably had a lot to do with the fact that the day turned out to be about everyone else. From birthdays, to couple projects, to pick up and drop off, I found precious little time to focus on me. Still working on that carve out. Need to work much harder, obviously.

I feel like I spend a great deal of time listening to the thoughts racing through my head. I tend to use distractions to silence them–be it ASMR or silly shows or what have you. Unfortunately, those things seed my mind with other thoughts. I wind up going deeper down the rabbit hole with the shows or trying to find better beta waves and so on. I used to know how to still my mind on my own or within my personal reach. The Lady Talis sent me to a sound therapist several times and that really cleared me out. I left those sessions spiritually and mentally healed. It has been way too long since I’ve had one of those. I do still have my own set of singing bowls that have barely left the case in which they live. That is something else for me to work on in future ‘me time’

I don’t have a ton of that today. I need to figure out how to get back in that writing mind. I hit my checkpoint for a short project and realized I haven’t really done any work on it. I have thoughts and notes, but nothing concrete is laid down. I was too busy fixing up that novel. With that out of the picture, it is time to turn my eyes forward to the newest of projects.

But I don’t want to. I want to keep trying to figure out how Dungeon Crawler Carl is so damn addictive. It already has a live action treatment and an upcoming webtoon. So… it hits. It also reminded me that most popular protagonists are middle aged white guys… That’s a post for another day.

8.269. Me Time

as the school year winds down I find myself locked in on. Lot of projects in the home and a bunch of responsibilities at work. It can be all consuming and it also reminds me that I need to take time for myself. I’m a person that ultimately lives for the people I love. I thrive on seeing everyone happy and focusing on their goodwill to the point where I can forget about myself and my needs to the point of truly losing touch with what I want and who I want to be for myself.

I don’t take very much me time. I don’t spend a ton of money or energy on myself. Heck even these ten minutes are forward facing reflections designed with a trader in mind. Now that things are getting busy I have to remind myself to find time for me and to take care of myself and ultimately to think about what it is that makes me happy independent of anyone else in my life, which is a difficult thing to do.