Day: January 8, 2026

I’d been trying to figure out why I was feeling so much better this morning. I thought at first it was about the trip to Seattle, but I’ve been riding that glow for days. Something else had shifted in my soul, making me smile a bit brighter. Then I remembered that I hadn’t checked the news. That was it for sure.

if I engage with the wider world —especially in terms of the IS

The us news machine then it is going to dim my reality. If I leave things be and let my world stay small and or in the dark about these things I cannot impact at present, I’m good. I practically glow. It is a bit of the point of how they run this mess: their brand is chaos and that means we cannot keep up with the cavalcade of nonsense being done to the point that we lose sight of how much illness is being foisted upon the world. It is sickening and draining and the moment I log off, I can begin to heal. So not logging on first thing is probably a good thing. I want to be informed, yes, but I want to ground myself first. Then I’ll step a foot into the icky waters of US antics. But only a foot. I cannot drown in the mess we are making less it drown my spirit entirely.

I was trying not to make this rent, but I don’t know if that’s going to work. Here’s the deal. The portal is way too big. The problem I’m having is that I’m a father and my son is in that portal filled with 9000 other players. A number I’m offering might not be the real thing but it is at least an estimate that is based on perceptions by people close to or having access to report now

what does that mean to me? it means that I have to find a way to help my son navigate this very dangerous and tricky situation as he tries to move towards his next step in college football and towards becoming a professional player. This is the way things are now. Everyone is trying to make money and everyone is trying to feel the best team. It was always like this but now everything is supposedly upfront and on the table. However, we can see from recent events that not everything is always as upfront as it seems. a childhood friend is in the portal or trying to be . He is being held back by his school because he signed a contract with that school and then opted to go to the portal. They won’t let him. They feel that he has a legal obligation, so we’ll see what happens with that. I’ll also see with my kid because this thing is getting crazier and crazier by the day. I don’t know how to be helpful in the whole situation. But I want is for him to have a chance to play and grow and learn and become a better band and a better football player. But I don’t know how to make that happen. It’s a stressful moment as a dad to be powerless in a situation when your son is suffering. Learning how to deal with that is, I guess, a part of our fatherhood as Well.