I don’t live in the same reality as my kids. I’m not sure I live in the same reality as anyone outside of my wife and perhaps my brother. These other people I encounter live in an entirely different world from me. They have different worries, concerns, perceptions, etc. What matters to them is very different. What they see value in and how they treat the concept of value is different. This is more than a discrepancy. I feel like a ghost from another time or place, a variant walking free on this version of earth.
It is leading to a great deal of additional tension and being fed up quite easily. I don’t have any real understanding of how to relax anymore. I need to rediscover how to do so within a very limited time, because I am struggling greatly and I fear it is going to infect the most important bond in my life. The struggle is real. I’m showing increasing signs of eczema as my body lashes out against the stress.
I need to chill.
Some Thoughts:
- Bonkers Headline of the day: “Kennedy Center will close for 2 years for renovations, Trump says, after performers’ backlash” Note they didn’t call it Trump/Kennedy. This is a legit tragedy here. The legacy space is being destroyed (read: renovated in Gold). It isn’t the first or last thing he’s gonna wreck it a la Ralph.