Too much screen time makes the ‘legger a drained boy. Not enough sleep ratchets it up a few notches. I’m experiencing something of a terminal drain. I know that I have a ton of work to get completed by monday and I am way too worn down to be even marginally effective this evening. So, I am giving up. I tried to fall into gaming a bit more but that is also a dangerous path–the one that keeps me up all nigt and does nothing to reset me. Tomorrow has to be a better start and, frankly, a better me. I haven’t been my best self. With my partner away for a few days it is a chance to sit and look at myself and learn a bit more about who I am right now and what I want with my alone time–my truly alone time.
I have to get moving towards being that better person. I’m nearly 50 and it hasn’t happened yet. What ever happened to the wide-eyed 17 yr old with the world waiting outside his window? He got jaded. He ran out of gas. He grew old. Doesn’t mean that is the end of the story. Just the start of the next chapter.