Experiencing technical difficulties connecting to the internet tonight. I didn’t even bother last night. I think what will happen is a Tuesday dump where it all comes out at once. Heck, maybe that will even be Wednesday. There is a kind of freedom writing directly to the computer and not thinking about the fact that everything I write is forever linked to a universe that will see it and not understand it from the perspective of the writer. Then, at the same time, I have this distant fantasy of the writings being captured and used to reverse engineer some rebirth of digital me—It feels like future AI will need to get their personality from somewhere.
Been enjoying this brief trip to Seattle. Been enjoying the fact that we don’t have actual plans with dates and times attached. I love that we have the freedom to decide how to spend each day, and as a result each day feels like living in freedom. I’ll need to talk about some things that went down in Bellevue, but I am not there yet. Still too raw in the memory. Presently I am watching Family Man on my anniversary, reveling in the irony of a show that talks about a man getting a glimpse of a better life, while I am that man living in his glimpse of a better life. I have been extremely lucky my entire life and that continues on through these moments with my partner. I’m fortunate to have her and to have the life we have together. This is the sort of thing people dream of and often never get. Yet, here I am having it.
Life be like that sometimes.