I said it before and I will say it again and again: Mindset controls everything. We will what we want into the universe. I believe people overlook this because it is not an absolute. Will does not replace action and activity. It aids it. Will powers these things. Will reminds us that what we are doing has purpose and shall, eventually, yield the results we wish. I see it in my 17 year old, whose portal experience is heating up. I see it in my 23 and 15 year olds who wait idly by for life to happen and fall deeper and deeper into routines and habits which will crush any hope of them becoming more than what they presently are. I see it in myself when my mind shapes my actions towards better things and belief in my abilities… and when it does not.
Me without will is an angry and distracted person. I allow the ‘feels’ of the world around me to swallow me in anger and everything –like every single thing– I do is harder and clouded by that anger. I can do no good in this shape. I can do nothing in this shape. This defines how the last few weeks have hammered out for me. Gradually, I was sinking into a darkness of anger, self doubt, and disconnection. However, to quote my childhood Joe’s…
I know that I cloud my mind with negativity at times and I am presently in a space where I need to have more and more positivity around me to offset the weight of the darkness and distraction that is the norm. I know that I need to get more positive. I gotta get my head to break away from the anger monkeys and get to a place where I am clam and focused and above all else, self-assured in the major phases of my life.