I had a moment today when I had to realize that not everyone lives in the screen space. The Lady Talis doesn’t. She does not understand what it is like to move from screen to screen chasing that high you get in each iteration. I used to think of it as running from something; even hiding from myself. Now I see it for the fix and the feeling that it is. I spend my morning moving from fiction to fiction to fiction. Three iterations of worlds cast on different screens. I rarely slow down to catch a minute of down or human time. That doesn’t bother me. When I need it, I take it. When I want it–when I want to step away from that churn–I take it. But it keeps me going. I use the fictions to create my fiction. Not the content of the game or the show I then switch to, but the energy of it; the knowing that this was created and experiencing that creation as motivation to make my own. That churn keeps me motivated in the cycle. It keeps me away from the natural world and all of its problems and responsibilities. It is hard for someone who doesn’t work like that to really fathom how that works. Even here in explanation I wonder if it makes sense to someone other than me.