Being away from home forces you to live an existence defined by what you don’t have as you are away from home. For me that means the shedding of layers of responsibility, the removal of a few different toys and games, and a separation from the routines that define the home life. So, what I learned from all of this is that the life I live away from home is indicative of the experience I want to have in my daily life. Yet somehow that doesn’t work out for me day to day.
Why?
I don’t really know or get it. The Lady Talis is not a fan of the home existence and thusly (yeah, I like the word though), wishes to experience a more refined existence reflective of how we operate when we are on the road. I get that. I can’t get how to make that happen, because I can’t define the essence of that experience outside of what I illustrated above. I love being on the beach. I am about to take this laptop to the beach and write and listen to the waves and feel absolutely wonderful. If I were putting in these hours at home I would be locked into the office–maybe with the door to the backyard open–and writing. I would be doing the same thing. However, the before and after–the routines surrounding the key moments change.
What she wants, and by extension what I want but fail to understand how to accomplish, is to make it more like it is here. After the words there will be more adventure, more chilling, more happiness and exploration of the world. As I write this I am starting to recognize that the world we live in is probably the problem. The space in which we perform these post-routine moments is the problem. I need to find the adventure in that space and redefine those moments.
How?
Yeah, I don’t know how to do that. I think I will start by turning my energies inward towards that space and trying to find the adventure in that space. I was the happiest I’ve been in years in that space when we were redefining it. When we were reshaping how the living room looked I was having a wonderful time. When we were setting the pace of how that space worked and functioned, I was having a better time.
I ought to start there.