I don’t know if anyone will see this post. There is strangeness happening on the site. I used a backdoor to get in and post, because typing in the web address didn’t work initially. Tech and I don’t always have a healthy or mutually beneficial relationship. I can say with certainty that I’ve had gremlins my entire life.
That life turned 50 today.
I am old and, at times, worn out. Today was yet another example of that. The Lady Talis went to extraordinary measures to make the day special and it was still disrupted by the lives of the other people closest to me remaining focused wholly on themselves and their lives in this moment in which I hoped it would be about me. One kid came through with a great gift. Another texted and it was totally unexpected. The daughter was awesome and we got to spend some real quality time. I’m taking these things as wins. I’m taking the entirety of the day as a win overall, because I spend too much of my life chasing down imperfections. Heck, I even started doing it in this very paragraph.
So, 50.
It means I need to think hard and long about how I want to spend my time. I talked recently about the change and evolution of the daily habits as a result of increased responsibility. Today showed I can handle that and still find time for self and family. I am happy to have turned over this new leaf. I am preparing to move into my second act. This life is worth living. I didn’t fully embrace that even five years ago.