The semester is about over. The teaching part of it is very much about over and I am at the stage where my body and mind are failing successively I walked for two miles today and felt fatigue one in. Don’t even get me started on the thinking. I’m not quite at that stage in my life anymore where I end a semester feeling full and refreshed. I leave off feeling a need for escape and usually escape to parts unknown and to be known and to get to know. The escape drives me. I fall into this constant cycle of hope that I can teach enough summer courses to fund my version of crazy. I’m getting closer.
Ultimately, the thing I want is to be done and to be focusing on the novel. I need to lock in and get it finished. The revision process is long and has required a massive rewrite, so I need to put in the hours. I was on such a great page with that and now I feel entirely lost thanks to all of the other stuff taking up residence in my head and life.
Overall, I am just tired.
There is more than enough going on right now. Saturday is the spring game for Northern Colorado, marking the kid’s first opportunity to show out on this new team. I am looking forward to seeing how he does and how prepared he is for the summer and the tough season ahead.