I don’t particularly enjoy being angry. I understand it. I realize the need for anger to exist in order to recognize the beauty of happiness as I realize the necessity of death to provide meaning to life. Doesn’t mean I have to like it. As I said, I don’t. When it comes it usually has everything to do with feelings of helplessness or being trapped in a situation I have no way of forcing myself up and out of. So, I’m angry. I know where the Lady Talis and I want to be in life. I also know where we are is exactly 84K away from it.
So, here is the real question–how to get 84k more yearly. If we could do that we’d be exactly at the point we need to be in life to live the way we want without any significant worry. Gods I realize how shallow and stupid and first world these problems sound, but I also recognize the universality of needing more in order to live the life you want. I have ability with writing, but no access to turn that to 84k at present. I’ll try to do it. I’ll give every effort this year and onward to developing pathways to increasing the amount of money I can personally generate in order to reach our (perhaps overly fancy) goals. Maybe we can even do it in stages–boost up an additional 1K a month these next 12 months and we’re plus 12K. Any problem starts to be more manageable once you get to the point of breaking it down into pieces.
So, instead of being as angry as I am, I need to be smart and thoughtful about my choices moving forward.