Another night and another blog pushed out at the last minute. I am completely slipping. Tomorrow is a new start. I am going to get up, do a walk, and then get my stuff together. I need to lock in on a routine that is healthy and productive and has me feeling and thinking with positive energy throughout the day. I gotta stop surviving and get back to a place where I am actually productive and doing the thing I am on this planet to do.
I mean other than loving my wife and kids…
I am seeing obstacles at every turn and ghosts in the darkness I am having bad dreams and chasing bad ideas. I am doing everything wrong and precious little right. I am too old for it and it is not sustainable in the least. My goal, ultimately, is to be able to start the next phase teachign elsewhere and living a life with writing forward. I want to feel like I am making progress towards that and I want to feel like this phase is going to end well. All that is happening at present is me spinning my wheels. Nothing productive can happen without a strong foundation. I need to do what is neccesary to prioritize setting that foundation for myself.
Some Thoughts:
- Need to also get back to basics in terms of savings. That is a huge thing I have failed to prioritize. I am paying down debt, sure, but I’m approaching retirement and I am not close to ready. How do people do this?
- Thinking about reading some books. Not audio but actual print. Been a while since I’ve consumed a real book. Needs to happen soon.
- Don’t really have much more to say but a minute or less to say that…