I am working towards getting over a great many things. I am, for example, trying to dispel the concern that the last time I was paid for my writing was April of 2025. That pay was for work performed in 2024… I have published several game books and a novel since then. So there are thousands of dollars still owed to me and no timeline for when I might be paid, in spite of the company continuing to profit off my work… Gotta get over it. Gotta get over the kid drama as illustrated yesterday. I have to fall back into the routine of accepting the things I cannot change as well as not allowing myself to be bullied or overlooked in any way. If that means making a bigger stink about the money, so be it. As of now, I have no intention of turning in any more work until I am paid for past work due.
Getting over it is part of the way towards building a better self. We all hold on to too much in life. We all allow ourselves to grip on tightly to ideas, perceived slights, hopes, etc. We carry them with us throughout life and they weigh us down. I remember learning somewhere as a kid that a lie is a thing that festers in you. It becomes a sickness you have to watch and monitor to ensure it doesn’t destroy you. Even small ones are dangerous. I think all the things we carry are like that–wearing us down until the best we can do is bare minimum. I no longer wonder if I’ve become like that. I know I have.
Now I have to climb out from under it all, no matter how long that takes.