Well, I made it to another Friday. Mostly through, actually. Today is a really tough on, because I am done with humans. I’ve reached the stress point where I don’t know how to be patient. I can feel and see flames when folks just stop dead in front of me as though they are no longer aware the world is existing around them. They do it in cars. They do it on foot. The do it in aisles. The do it in turning lanes, parking lots, between spots… I’m really just done.
There is no natural cause for each individual moment of anger. I’m simply overwhelmed. There was a moment where two of my boys were headed to the park to play basketball and brought along their phones… To walk a block. In my defense they usually don’t bring their phones to go play basketball, but now one is so lovestruck with a girl he’s lost all contact with reality. Thing is glued to his hip like a revolver and everything else stops when she buzzes. That is forgivable to an extent. Love is what love is. Still, put it down and have a real relationship and a real moment with your brother–especially when you asked him to go play.
See, that’s it right there. These little things generally live far below the surface of my psyche but now they are present and painfully obviously bothering the hell out of me. It’s just humans too! The dog, a pain in the ass on a good day, is not on my radar. The cats… Well, okay. They bug still, but no more than normal. It is really just the people who are glowing with… i don’t even know what to call it.
Overstressed.
Let’s call it that. My normal escape to video games is marred by an obsession with a game I cannot win. Yes, the Spire slayed me. Over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over again. Yet I get up, dust myself off, and try again. I’m beginning to lose the thread of why. The win isn’t going to feel like anything but a sigh of relief at this point.
I should just go back to Minecraft and chill. Well, for now I’m going to go walk the dog.
Some Thoughts:
- Bonkers headline of the day: “Melania Trump’s documentary premieres at the Kennedy Center ahead of global release” Yeah.. but nobody is buying tickets because why would they? Better question: Why would Amazon spend 75 million making it (and of course, paying her for it to be made). This is corruption at it’s finest, folks.