Pablo Neruda famously quipped, “It so happens I am sick of being a man.” This poem entitled, Walking Around, whispered in dulcet tones, speaks to me of the responsibilities of masculinity, of adulthood, of fatherhood. I wonder about these things openly, questioning the perceptions of me and what I want–even need–to be. I’m no more qualified than the next person to define what it means to be a man. I can talk about the fatigue of the role and maybe a bit about why mid-life crisis happens.
I suppose I’m about two years out from my MLC. At some point you recognize the life you have is not at all the life you intended in that pressure cooker of high school. Not everyone enters into this confusion with a frown. Things could’ve gone very differently in my life and I could have a differently life entirely. I’m happy with where I am, but the Mid life culprit is rarely how happy you are, but instead it it the devastating realization that your failures are 100% about the stuff you didn’t do when you could’ve. That is the part that’ll drive you mad.
Some Thoughts:
1. Never finished those picks, so here we go:
DEN over IND
I’m close going with Indy here for a couple of reasons. As much as Peyton really wants this game, I think the Indy defense wants it more–not for Luck but for themselves. They want and need a win here to right the ship and set them up for the season. A win here means a playoff hope. On the other hand, Von Miller is officially back, so that’s that.
SF over TEN
The home games vex me, however I feel like SF is getting back to form, and this game allows Colin K to take another turn at being Superman.
STL over CAR
I’m still not a believer in Carolina, no matter what they did to the Giants. My 90 yr old aunt might have been able to do that to the Giants if her hop wasn’t so bad.
WSH over CHI
Washington came alive a bit last week. I saw that, though they couldn’t beat the Cowboys yet, they are ready to put wins on the board.