40 – 37 = 3 or 3 years.
Include the fact that I legitimately turn 38 in March, and I don’t have long to go before I am 40 yrs old. Why am I regurgitating this awfulness now? Well, because I desperately despise almost being 40, and I feel like the writing I do is quickly becoming a young man’s game.
There is nothing in the known world to prove my opinion is accurate. It is more of a feeling; a sense that there is a storm of twenty-something geniuses lurking just beyond my perception and waiting for a chance to release really great fiction. I am not mad at them. Hell, I envy them and what they will soon accomplish. I’ve been at this Shadowrun thing for over a decade and I’m finally hitting my stride. Imagine having the energy and zeal of a 20 yr old and being in full stride. That is what Bolt must feel like halfway through the 100 meter.
So what now?
Such a moment of realization should spur me to be a more prolific writer. It doesn’t. I am at the point where my life allows me so much writing and I’ve hit that cap. There is this though: I want to be at a place in a year where I get to leave home for a week, go up to the woods and write. Just write. The next year it can be two weeks, and then perhaps three, with the family joining me for the fourth week. I can do it if I have a grandparent fly up and help the wife out. The fact is, I need the time away from my every day reality to find my way into these wonderful imaginary worlds I hope to create.
Some Thoughts:
- Shout out to Carissa G. who made it through surgery today. It was a nightmare scenario. See, the state of Arizona could not locate a single medical professional capable of performing the delicate neurosurgery. Finally, a doctor was found (likely at extreme insurance cost) and the life-saving surgery occurred. Happy you’re okay CG.
- Just lost about 10 minutes of my life listening to Anne Coulter. As I mentioned above, I’m a few shy of 40, so I don’t have a bunch of time to be wasting. She appeared on Bill Maher’s show and talked her trash as she does. I think she feels she can semantically bully everyone around her into her version of the truth. I think this makes her a terrible human being but a perfect republican.