I’ve been moving through the past few weeks (post semester) without any real sense of purpose and that has led to a clear reflection on what was, is, and should/will be. The more I consider these points, the more that I think about my home and my practices and the very basic concept of where I am going.
As a writing teacher one of my favorite remarks to leave on a pear is ‘Where are you taking me/where are we going?” That is a clear indicator that I want to be on a journey with the writer but I want to have a sense of where that journey leads or what it is about. Life is a lot like that. When I was at my most confused and vapid, fat with minimal success, I had no goal–no destination. I had no journey. Nowadays I know where I am going and what I am moving towards and the new target is not a fixed point but a type and way of growth. So, when I think about how my life is going to be moving forward, I think about the dysfunction of mind and the idea that without an agenda or orientation it is very difficult to know what to focus in on.
All of this seems pie in the sky but on the ground level it involves some simple steps and changes: lists, being better to friends, being more in touch with my soul. Simple words, but big tasks.