This is a tough time of the year because it is easy to get physically run down and, as a result, find your creativity lagging tremendously. Coffee helps, but sleep is much better. I’ve been having much more of the former and the result is a low functioning brain and, well, everything else. I’m considering lavender therapy. And a nap. Maybe two naps. Still, there are other obstacles that hold me back personally. The pay issue is a big one.
I’ve grown a little accustomed to being paid for the writing I do. Not all of it, of course, but the contract stuff. I’ve been looking for a check since late 2015. Several checks, actually. I’m not writing to burn anyone, but I need to get it off my chest. I think it is killing my desire. I have had opportunities to write quite a bit more for this company–really good stuff–and let it go because of pay concerns. That, in turn, led me to lose a lot of my desire in the writing field. I could just stop thinking about writing in terms of profit, but there is also a lot of hurt there. Maybe the best option is to step away for a while and focus on an entirely different direction.